I went back to April and found Diane's old survey, and because I'm waiting for a call, I'm gonna do it. Again.
Four movies you could watch over and over:
1. Super Troopers
2. Napoleon Dynamite
3. Forrest Gump
4. PeeWee's Big Adventure
(and I have seen them all over and over and over again...)
Four objects you touch everyday:
1. computer keyboard
2. my pillow
3. toilet paper
4. doorknob
Four things you do everyday:
1. eat
2. sleep
3. shower
4. blink
Four bands (singers) you couldn't live without:
1. Dave Matthews
2. Journey
3. Beatles
4. NSYNC (haha- its TRUE!)
Four things you love at the moment:
1. the song "Caring is Creepy" by the Shins
2. my Beatles blanket
3. my parents
4. chocolate
3 Favorite songs at the moment:
1. caring is creepy- the shins
2. the look- roxette
3. stay or leave- dave matthews
Two people who have influenced your life the most:
1. mrs. brave
2. marty scott
One thing you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. my photos
BASIC QUESTIONS
my name is: Laura Minette Griffith
in the morning i am: asleep, or filling out surveys online
all I need is: love
love is: (Diane remember this?) LOVE is a TEMPTATION caused by a SENSATION when a guy sticks his LOCATION in a girl's DESTINATION to increase the POPULATION- do u get my EXPLANATION or do u need a DEMONSTRATION?!?!
I’m afraid of: tornadoes, losing my parents
HAVE YOU EVER . . .
fallen for your best friend: yes
been rejected: yes. what do you mean NO diane?!!? are u human?
rejected someone: yes
used someone: maybe a little (i really did like him tho! until he became an ass)
been cheated on: not technically
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON . . .
you talked to: Matt
hugged: my mommy
kissed: Dan Renick, ah hahahaha
you instant messaged: Matt
you laughed with: myself
DO YOU…
color your hair: recently only part of it ;)
habla espanol: no, habla ingles
smoke: no
drink: yes, but not excessively
trust others way too easily? definitely
F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S . . .
I want: a great love
I wish: I'd stop dating losers
I miss: Diane, home (and everyone there), Kate, Ashley, Stephen, Matt, April
I fear: being alone forever, not getting a job a little closer to home than this!!
I hear: ya (haha)
I wonder: whats in a wonderball. do they still make those?
Current Music: the police scanner. davenport is scary.
7.28.2005
Evil, Meatballs in a Cup and Deleted Members
DAMN I'M EVIL!
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
P.S. I deleted members who never use this anymore, but I left Cory and Jen in case they change their minds
ALSO- It's food day at the Argus. And I should have waited a little bit. Oh well, by the time all the food's out it'll be time to go at it again!! WOO! Steve is eating meatballs out of a cup. haha.What a way to go out! 4 kinds of chips, meatballs, deviled eggs, tricuits, summer sausage, carrots, honeydew, cantaloupe. I heard talk of Brian bringing lasagna.... I have been a starving intern for too long, haha. My last trip to the rec will not be in vain.
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Moderate |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Very High |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | High |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | High |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very High |
| Level 7 (Violent) | High |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | High |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | High |
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
P.S. I deleted members who never use this anymore, but I left Cory and Jen in case they change their minds
ALSO- It's food day at the Argus. And I should have waited a little bit. Oh well, by the time all the food's out it'll be time to go at it again!! WOO! Steve is eating meatballs out of a cup. haha.What a way to go out! 4 kinds of chips, meatballs, deviled eggs, tricuits, summer sausage, carrots, honeydew, cantaloupe. I heard talk of Brian bringing lasagna.... I have been a starving intern for too long, haha. My last trip to the rec will not be in vain.
Guys only like girls who have great skills!
Emily- I added your Webshots to the links on the side of the page if you actually look at the blog. I don't know if U do or if you read it after u sign in, but u can also see posted pictures on the blog if u just do directly to the address. I don't know if you knew.
Since no one but my homeys (hehe) reads this blog I am going to update you all on a truly strange situation- one of which Thomas has heard and Diane heard little bits and pieces of last night.
It seems like I am only attracted to guys who love everyone but me. Themselves. Alcohol. Their friends. Their family. Their ex-girlfriends... but not me.
Which brings us to the topic of today's post- ex-girlfriends. I of all people understand it can take one helluva long time to get over an ex. I mean, u all know that about me. I don't think I was ever truly over it until I could finally truthfully say to myself without a doubt that I didn't like that person anymore. And it took nearly 3 years. So when it's only been several months I know it's hard. And I try to be there for this guy.... But how well can you really console someone about a breakup when you actually wish they could start thinking about someone new- you?
For as long as I've known this person, he and I have flirted hard core. But he was always dating a friend of mine, and so nothing serious ever came about it, and I ignored my crush. It was widely known that she cheated on him, with one of his close friends, but he took her back and still thought it was some fairy tale romance. Then, he graduates. She's got 2 more years to go. Away on an internship- she cheats again, and he ends it for good. I start talking to him online, more and more- after I wrote him one random e-mail while I was bored at work in an effort to catch up. He decides to tell me- and NO ONE ELSE- that they broke up. Later, after all the "it will be okay, I know it sucks now"s, commence the flirting. And it gets more intense each time we have these conversations- until it finally comes out. He says it not me.
My friend is going to visit him this weekend, and he wishes I was coming before her. Why I ask? Because he's in a vulnerable situation and he's afraid of what he might do- Situation: this girl has made it known to him before that she's liked him, and although he doesn't like her like that- it's amazing what ppl will do in his current situation. This bothers him because- get this- while he can't get over his ex and would make out with someone to feel better about it- he wouldn't want to ruin any chances he has with me.
So I tell him what he already knows- if he's looking for a rebound, he had better look elsewhere. We are so much alike, we have so much fun talking and hanging out and we could really be good together. And he knows that. And he agrees- if he were with me, it wouldn't be a rebound situation because he doesn't want to screw up with me- not friends-wise, and not girlfriend-wise. Right now he's really confused. He knows he thinks highly of me, and is attracted to me, and he has said he wants to take a chance, but first he wants to make sure it's what he really wants. Which is great because I don't need him thinking he likes me and then deciding later that it was only because his ex weighed so heavily on his mind and made him lovesick. And I don't want someone whose always going to put me in second place- I deserve better than that. So I've run out of things to say at this point in the convo. He switches aol screen names so he can write his ex an e-mail. He doesn't ever want to talk to her again he says. Her random calls every so often only keep him stringing along, and we both know that. Without trying to sound like a bitch- I tell him he's making the right choice. From my perspective- I tried the keeping in touch thing, and that's what made it take 3 years. But it also hurts, because his ex is my friend too- but then I remind myself she cheated on this wonderful person who would have done anything for her, TWICE, and it's hard not to take sides anymore.
So I try to console him, but inside my head, everything I think to type sounds like "get over it and be my boyfriend." So I don't say much. He goes to bed, emotionally distraught. When I asked if he was going to be ok, without much hesitation- he said "no." (I've been in that place, and I know he's not in his right mind, but still...)
It's a bad sign, and I know inevitably there aren't chances for him and me at this point. I could never date someone who otherwise would be perfect for me, but can't seem to let go of someone who treated him like shit. Do we like that? What's wrong with us??!? Ugh. Enough. Kbye
Long post, sorry.
Since no one but my homeys (hehe) reads this blog I am going to update you all on a truly strange situation- one of which Thomas has heard and Diane heard little bits and pieces of last night.
It seems like I am only attracted to guys who love everyone but me. Themselves. Alcohol. Their friends. Their family. Their ex-girlfriends... but not me.
Which brings us to the topic of today's post- ex-girlfriends. I of all people understand it can take one helluva long time to get over an ex. I mean, u all know that about me. I don't think I was ever truly over it until I could finally truthfully say to myself without a doubt that I didn't like that person anymore. And it took nearly 3 years. So when it's only been several months I know it's hard. And I try to be there for this guy.... But how well can you really console someone about a breakup when you actually wish they could start thinking about someone new- you?
For as long as I've known this person, he and I have flirted hard core. But he was always dating a friend of mine, and so nothing serious ever came about it, and I ignored my crush. It was widely known that she cheated on him, with one of his close friends, but he took her back and still thought it was some fairy tale romance. Then, he graduates. She's got 2 more years to go. Away on an internship- she cheats again, and he ends it for good. I start talking to him online, more and more- after I wrote him one random e-mail while I was bored at work in an effort to catch up. He decides to tell me- and NO ONE ELSE- that they broke up. Later, after all the "it will be okay, I know it sucks now"s, commence the flirting. And it gets more intense each time we have these conversations- until it finally comes out. He says it not me.
My friend is going to visit him this weekend, and he wishes I was coming before her. Why I ask? Because he's in a vulnerable situation and he's afraid of what he might do- Situation: this girl has made it known to him before that she's liked him, and although he doesn't like her like that- it's amazing what ppl will do in his current situation. This bothers him because- get this- while he can't get over his ex and would make out with someone to feel better about it- he wouldn't want to ruin any chances he has with me.
So I tell him what he already knows- if he's looking for a rebound, he had better look elsewhere. We are so much alike, we have so much fun talking and hanging out and we could really be good together. And he knows that. And he agrees- if he were with me, it wouldn't be a rebound situation because he doesn't want to screw up with me- not friends-wise, and not girlfriend-wise. Right now he's really confused. He knows he thinks highly of me, and is attracted to me, and he has said he wants to take a chance, but first he wants to make sure it's what he really wants. Which is great because I don't need him thinking he likes me and then deciding later that it was only because his ex weighed so heavily on his mind and made him lovesick. And I don't want someone whose always going to put me in second place- I deserve better than that. So I've run out of things to say at this point in the convo. He switches aol screen names so he can write his ex an e-mail. He doesn't ever want to talk to her again he says. Her random calls every so often only keep him stringing along, and we both know that. Without trying to sound like a bitch- I tell him he's making the right choice. From my perspective- I tried the keeping in touch thing, and that's what made it take 3 years. But it also hurts, because his ex is my friend too- but then I remind myself she cheated on this wonderful person who would have done anything for her, TWICE, and it's hard not to take sides anymore.
So I try to console him, but inside my head, everything I think to type sounds like "get over it and be my boyfriend." So I don't say much. He goes to bed, emotionally distraught. When I asked if he was going to be ok, without much hesitation- he said "no." (I've been in that place, and I know he's not in his right mind, but still...)
It's a bad sign, and I know inevitably there aren't chances for him and me at this point. I could never date someone who otherwise would be perfect for me, but can't seem to let go of someone who treated him like shit. Do we like that? What's wrong with us??!? Ugh. Enough. Kbye
Long post, sorry.
7.27.2005
A lot of catching up..
Dang, I really fell out of the blog in the past month. I apologize for that, but hopefully I can get myself back on track. I need to update everyone on my situation, as well as catch up on a lilreading, hehe. I have been doing nothing but dating, partying and work. That is pretty much it, and between those three things I have had NO time whatsoever. But I've managed to write now. I'm still long distance dating Marc in B-town soon to be NYC. I will see him again on September 1st or 2nd, when I go to North Carolina with my family. I am, also, (maybe not now though) dating a guy named Curtis. Feel free to stop at my webshots and check him out, I recently updated it. I am also somewhat dating Adam again, I don't see that going anywher though. I don't know that I'm dating Curtis anymore because he became very jealous last night when I told him that Adam is coming down on Saturday (which he was cool with two days ago). Anyway, that is really messed up right now because I don't want a serious relationship, or a relationship at all for that matter, but he does. So, we'll see where that goes, and if it doesn't work out then oh well.
My house is a complete disaster because I've had a couple of major parties and have failed to clean up after any of them, and I had 5 sorority sisters stay the weekend with me. You can only imagine the mess. For those who saw the damage after 4th of July, this is 5xs worse.
Also, I've decided in the last couple of days that I am going to cut waaaayyy far back on my drinking. Its kinda been getting out of control this month, like spending over 100 a weekend on nothing but booze, and the occasional waking up and not remembering going to bed, or what you did a couple of hours b4 u went to bed. It was fun and all but I'm way too poor and wakin up to not remembering scares me, even though I'm around friends.
Well I need to clean and get at least some stuff done tonight. Bbbyyyyeeeee
My house is a complete disaster because I've had a couple of major parties and have failed to clean up after any of them, and I had 5 sorority sisters stay the weekend with me. You can only imagine the mess. For those who saw the damage after 4th of July, this is 5xs worse.
Also, I've decided in the last couple of days that I am going to cut waaaayyy far back on my drinking. Its kinda been getting out of control this month, like spending over 100 a weekend on nothing but booze, and the occasional waking up and not remembering going to bed, or what you did a couple of hours b4 u went to bed. It was fun and all but I'm way too poor and wakin up to not remembering scares me, even though I'm around friends.
Well I need to clean and get at least some stuff done tonight. Bbbyyyyeeeee
Thank you for bein a friend.......
remember when we were characters from the Golden Girls? I took the emode test and got Rose! Woohoo!
2 days after this one
The last couple days are never as monotonous as the rest of the time it seems.
That's because they are filled with some possible, and some probable "lasts."
Today, for example. I finished my last assigned story. I have a feeling he won't give me anything else unless he knows it can be finished in a day. Otherwise, what would be the point? I guess what I had found could be passed on to another reporter, probably Darla, but she has her own stuff to be working on.
Tomorrow will be the last day I wish it was the last day. Ha. Also, it will be the last day I enjoy free food in the newsroom, and the last time I have to eat a skimpy dinner cuz I have nothing in the fridge. My visit to the rec will be my last. And my night's sleep will be the last night I spend alone in the Quad Cities.
Friday will be full of lasts. My last day in the newsroom. My last 8 hrs spent at the Argus. My last lunch with Darla. My last view of the District, Davenport or the Centennial Bridge.... If I know my parents, the last time I set foot in a QC casino. The last time I sleep in my Augie dorm room. The last shower I take in a community bathroom, the last time I rely on a tiny fridge to supply food for me to live. It will also be my last night on the town(s) with the 'rents. Maybe I will come back here someday, to visit if nothing else. The area is a quaint, comfy one, with a definitely homely presence- yet not small enough to be hickier than my own hometown.
This summer was my last as a student. My last trip to 4 different county fairs in 9 weeks. My last chance to live away from home, knowing I'm coming back after two months. My last to live it up until I reach adulthood, that word that scares many of my friends.
And Saturday morning, I will look in the rearview mirror and watch Rock Island and then Moline slowly disappear, for the last time.
It will be sad, now that the wait seems inevitably over. It's a shame that I focus so hard on wanting to get out I never get to actually experience a place until it's almost gone. Then it's too late.
I find myself smiling because I hear Steve say something stupid or because Brian is telling me to get out of his way (jokingly) and to print out clips on my own time. Standing by Kurt and the printer, I remember the time he told me to tell my parents "hi" even though he had never met him, and I realize I only hung out with these people once.
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad it's about over. I know if I had another chance I'd take the easy way out and count down the days till I reach home sweet Godfrey, Ill. Just thinking...... daydreaming, what else is new?
That's because they are filled with some possible, and some probable "lasts."
Today, for example. I finished my last assigned story. I have a feeling he won't give me anything else unless he knows it can be finished in a day. Otherwise, what would be the point? I guess what I had found could be passed on to another reporter, probably Darla, but she has her own stuff to be working on.
Tomorrow will be the last day I wish it was the last day. Ha. Also, it will be the last day I enjoy free food in the newsroom, and the last time I have to eat a skimpy dinner cuz I have nothing in the fridge. My visit to the rec will be my last. And my night's sleep will be the last night I spend alone in the Quad Cities.
Friday will be full of lasts. My last day in the newsroom. My last 8 hrs spent at the Argus. My last lunch with Darla. My last view of the District, Davenport or the Centennial Bridge.... If I know my parents, the last time I set foot in a QC casino. The last time I sleep in my Augie dorm room. The last shower I take in a community bathroom, the last time I rely on a tiny fridge to supply food for me to live. It will also be my last night on the town(s) with the 'rents. Maybe I will come back here someday, to visit if nothing else. The area is a quaint, comfy one, with a definitely homely presence- yet not small enough to be hickier than my own hometown.
This summer was my last as a student. My last trip to 4 different county fairs in 9 weeks. My last chance to live away from home, knowing I'm coming back after two months. My last to live it up until I reach adulthood, that word that scares many of my friends.
And Saturday morning, I will look in the rearview mirror and watch Rock Island and then Moline slowly disappear, for the last time.
It will be sad, now that the wait seems inevitably over. It's a shame that I focus so hard on wanting to get out I never get to actually experience a place until it's almost gone. Then it's too late.
I find myself smiling because I hear Steve say something stupid or because Brian is telling me to get out of his way (jokingly) and to print out clips on my own time. Standing by Kurt and the printer, I remember the time he told me to tell my parents "hi" even though he had never met him, and I realize I only hung out with these people once.
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad it's about over. I know if I had another chance I'd take the easy way out and count down the days till I reach home sweet Godfrey, Ill. Just thinking...... daydreaming, what else is new?
7.26.2005
and----
they didnt even need my expert advice about diane's work skills. i guess simply my name will do the trick. they see she has laura griffith as a source and they're like--HIRE HER IMMEDIATELY!~ just kidding- good job though, and good luck even if u don't need it. so i'm eating an apple and typing with excellent precision using my one free hand. today is nearly thru- 3 days left, the countdown continues. currently, i have apple stuck in my tooth. argh.
7.24.2005
Here she comes to save the day...
I have a second interview!!! Yay! I go give a practice massage to one of the people on tuesday so I'll let y'all know. I'm nervous! I really want to work for these people. This isn't just something ordinary. They massage business men like CEO and presidents of companies! Which means big bucks!
I think I'll be coming home sometime around Thanksgiving or so. I'll keep everyone posted b/c I'll be making trips around to everyones school for sure! xoxo
I think I'll be coming home sometime around Thanksgiving or so. I'll keep everyone posted b/c I'll be making trips around to everyones school for sure! xoxo
7.22.2005
Thank you Mrs. Brave
Ok, so, I just went to my massage interview. It was a group interview so they just went over a few things and the people that hadn't filled out apps did. I was one of them. There were a two questions that I turned more into essay questions and I feel I really nailed them. All thanks to Mrs. Brave and her teaching Journalism class how to bs the AP test. She rules! So in a couple of days hopefully they will invite me back for a 2nd inteview and I'll get to leave Aero! xoxo
Heat Advisory
Hey kids! It's your local journalist here, reporting to you what you should maybe know since it's usually hotter down there than it is here, and we've been issued warnings to stay safe this weekend, as the heat index is expected to be around 110 degrees. These are the fact boxes that go with my story: Learn something!
Tips for staying safe in the heat:
-RELAX. Avoid strenuous activity. If it is a must, do it between 4-7 a.m.
-FIND A COOL PLACE. Stay indoors in the air conditioning or on the lowest floor of your house, out of the sunlight. Operate fans. You may also want to visit a neighbor or head to a public place like the library or the mall.
-STAY HYDRATED. Drink water. Take in more fluids than you are losing. Avoid alcohol and caffeine.
-PROTECT YOUR BODY. Wear lightweight, light-colored clothing to deflect the sun's heat. Wear sunglasses and waterproof sunscreen with an spf of 30 or more. Reapply as needed. Wear shoes outside to avoid painful burns on feet.
-ADJUST EATING HABITS. Eat smaller meals more often throughout the day.
-MONITOR CHILDREN, THE SICK AND THE ELDERLY. These groups are the most vulnerable. Be sure to check on elderly neighbors, especially those without air conditioning. Regularly monitor those with high blood pressure or heart disease. Make sure kids take play breaks to cool down and drink water or sports drinks (to replenish electrolytes). Pedialyte is also effective in infants and small children.
-COOL DOWN SLOWLY. If you do become overheated, use cold compresses around your neck and wrists to cool off. A cold shower could send your body into shock.
-BRING PETS INDOORS. If they must stay outside, may sure they have a supply of cool water at all times.
-NEVER LEAVE A PET OR A CHILD UNATTENDED IN A VEHICLE
Danger signs:
-Dry mouth
-No tears
-Sunken eyes
-Reduction in urination, dark-colored urine
-Skin that stays compressed when pinched
-Light-headedness, dizziness
-Thirst
(More advanced signs)
-Rapid or weak pulse (more than 100 at rest)
-Cold hands and feet
-Rapid breathing
-Blue lips
-Confusion
-Lethargy
Tips for staying safe in the heat:
-RELAX. Avoid strenuous activity. If it is a must, do it between 4-7 a.m.
-FIND A COOL PLACE. Stay indoors in the air conditioning or on the lowest floor of your house, out of the sunlight. Operate fans. You may also want to visit a neighbor or head to a public place like the library or the mall.
-STAY HYDRATED. Drink water. Take in more fluids than you are losing. Avoid alcohol and caffeine.
-PROTECT YOUR BODY. Wear lightweight, light-colored clothing to deflect the sun's heat. Wear sunglasses and waterproof sunscreen with an spf of 30 or more. Reapply as needed. Wear shoes outside to avoid painful burns on feet.
-ADJUST EATING HABITS. Eat smaller meals more often throughout the day.
-MONITOR CHILDREN, THE SICK AND THE ELDERLY. These groups are the most vulnerable. Be sure to check on elderly neighbors, especially those without air conditioning. Regularly monitor those with high blood pressure or heart disease. Make sure kids take play breaks to cool down and drink water or sports drinks (to replenish electrolytes). Pedialyte is also effective in infants and small children.
-COOL DOWN SLOWLY. If you do become overheated, use cold compresses around your neck and wrists to cool off. A cold shower could send your body into shock.
-BRING PETS INDOORS. If they must stay outside, may sure they have a supply of cool water at all times.
-NEVER LEAVE A PET OR A CHILD UNATTENDED IN A VEHICLE
Danger signs:
-Dry mouth
-No tears
-Sunken eyes
-Reduction in urination, dark-colored urine
-Skin that stays compressed when pinched
-Light-headedness, dizziness
-Thirst
(More advanced signs)
-Rapid or weak pulse (more than 100 at rest)
-Cold hands and feet
-Rapid breathing
-Blue lips
-Confusion
-Lethargy
7.21.2005
Obsession, By Rachelowe
Dude you have an obsession. No, I don't want to stand outside the game and wait for HOT PROFESSIONAL CARDINALS players to come outside so I can see them UP CLOSE and get AN AUTOGRAPH. If you couldn't sense the sarcasm, I'd be glad to.
I guess I need to bring something that can sign then eh? hmmmm...... They can't touch my hat. I love wearing it too much. Maybe my old hat!! hmmm
I guess I need to bring something that can sign then eh? hmmmm...... They can't touch my hat. I love wearing it too much. Maybe my old hat!! hmmm
7.20.2005
Remember when we were "froot loop" and "tutti frutti" and the like?
Yeah well, I like what u have there already. Maybe that kind of poem doesn't need closure, because it seems like you don't have closure to speak of.
You could be becoming your mother, as so many people speak about, which technically is maturing, as your mom is a grown lady. Avoiding arguments can't last forever though. Small arguments yes, but if something you need to discuss yet you know you will disagree on comes up- it's probably worth discussing, for the health of the relationship.
If fighting with Mike isn't what makes you want to buy a plane ticket home, I'm guessing a part of you misses it, because you didn't address that specifically. You know like I said earlier- I wanted to get away for awhile, and the time is coming where I am starting to want to come back. Not until afer I graduate of course, but you get the point. Were you wanting to get away forever and start a new life in Texas?
I hope wherever you end up you feel happy about it. I think maybe the more you mature you might find that you get bored with places less. People gotta slow down and end up somewhere someday. Maybe you're not ready for that yet, but you could be feeling it- I donno I only speculate and can be more than wrong on occasion.
There are very few boys out there that want not much more than what you just said, I too have found out. A special certain few tend to be like that at first though, or I hold out hope that I find one. I know you said Mike was really special and that's why you decided not to leave Texas- are you still feeling that way? See anything for the future?
You could be becoming your mother, as so many people speak about, which technically is maturing, as your mom is a grown lady. Avoiding arguments can't last forever though. Small arguments yes, but if something you need to discuss yet you know you will disagree on comes up- it's probably worth discussing, for the health of the relationship.
If fighting with Mike isn't what makes you want to buy a plane ticket home, I'm guessing a part of you misses it, because you didn't address that specifically. You know like I said earlier- I wanted to get away for awhile, and the time is coming where I am starting to want to come back. Not until afer I graduate of course, but you get the point. Were you wanting to get away forever and start a new life in Texas?
I hope wherever you end up you feel happy about it. I think maybe the more you mature you might find that you get bored with places less. People gotta slow down and end up somewhere someday. Maybe you're not ready for that yet, but you could be feeling it- I donno I only speculate and can be more than wrong on occasion.
There are very few boys out there that want not much more than what you just said, I too have found out. A special certain few tend to be like that at first though, or I hold out hope that I find one. I know you said Mike was really special and that's why you decided not to leave Texas- are you still feeling that way? See anything for the future?
I'm just an emotional fruit basket today!
I try writing and I get a couple of things out but then I don't like anything else. Usually I can only write dark things. Earlier I wrote this but I can't finish it. Its hard to ever finish anything I write...
Sucking the passon from my lips
Blank stares and cold hands help you forget everything I am
Cut into the hole where your black heart lies
Torture me with neglect and useless necessary things
Quilting the same pattern from our past into our future
Tomorrow will be the same charade
Things with Mike are good but there are some things that bother me. I hate the way guys get sucked into the tv or computer(useless necessary things). I think I watch too many movies and expect the fate/destiny/romance that hollywood propaganda portrays. Guys and girls don't think alike. Guys are more materialistic with cars and other expensive toys to out do each other and girls want some kind of head over heels sweep me off my feet romance. I mean I would rather sit and play the "question game" then watch tv.
I've never been the one to avoid arguements but I do now. I can't stand to fight or argue or anything b/c I know that when we get in our first real big fight my ass is just going to pack up and leave. There have been so many times already when I was about to buy a plane ticket home. Not from fighting with Mike though. I don't know if I'm growing up/maturing or just avoiding conflict. I mean my mom is a laid back lady and nothing bothers her...at least she doesn't show it. So am I just growing into that and nothing is wrong with me or am I avoiding conflict?
I think thats it for now...I have a pounding stress headache after all that. xoxo
Sucking the passon from my lips
Blank stares and cold hands help you forget everything I am
Cut into the hole where your black heart lies
Torture me with neglect and useless necessary things
Quilting the same pattern from our past into our future
Tomorrow will be the same charade
Things with Mike are good but there are some things that bother me. I hate the way guys get sucked into the tv or computer(useless necessary things). I think I watch too many movies and expect the fate/destiny/romance that hollywood propaganda portrays. Guys and girls don't think alike. Guys are more materialistic with cars and other expensive toys to out do each other and girls want some kind of head over heels sweep me off my feet romance. I mean I would rather sit and play the "question game" then watch tv.
I've never been the one to avoid arguements but I do now. I can't stand to fight or argue or anything b/c I know that when we get in our first real big fight my ass is just going to pack up and leave. There have been so many times already when I was about to buy a plane ticket home. Not from fighting with Mike though. I don't know if I'm growing up/maturing or just avoiding conflict. I mean my mom is a laid back lady and nothing bothers her...at least she doesn't show it. So am I just growing into that and nothing is wrong with me or am I avoiding conflict?
I think thats it for now...I have a pounding stress headache after all that. xoxo
Response to Diane
Wow that wasn't there when I started my last post. But I'm glad it is now, because it gives me something more to think about and write.
I wish I was a kid again too. Especially after reading that. It hits me everytime I think about what happens after graduation. I freak out and tell myself and everyone around me that there is no way I'm moving away from home right after. Eventually, yeah probably, but not right after. I don't have the money----- or the security I found I was missing when I moved here to Rock Island.
It's me- after slowly getting away after two years that can still admit that no matter what anybody has to say about a medium- semi-small town- I still want to end up in one. If not Alton, then someplace like it. I wanted to get away- experience new things- and I'm happier than ever that I did, or else a lot of opportunities would have passed me by and I'd still be unhappy as ever wishing I was in a different place. But I didn't mean FOREVER... not yet anyways.
When I was home last weekend, I saw Chelsea. It was nice to see her and all... she sat down with me and Rachelowe and started talking to us. Not surprisingly the first things she had to say were rumors about people I used to know. I turned away a few times, trying to seem quasi-interested but not being able to help my thoughts about how juvenile this situation was in the first place. Needless to say I used to think Chelsea was super cool, when I was little. And I still think back and remember the fun we used to have, but then I also think about where I am today, and where she is. There are pluses and minuses of course.
She still hangs out with all her friends from high school. Or a good amount of them. I still talk to many of mine, but I've also gained friends at SIUE and at EIU, and I like to think my range of friends keeps me well balanced. I got opportunities living at college that she never will. I experienced dorm life, bitchy roommates, a sorority (which I actually always thought woulda been more her route than mine).... and lots more. So I'm happy about where I've come.
There always comes a point in my life where I wish I could go back to being 5. I was fit, happy all the time (ask my dad even), tomboyish, adventurous, athletic and outdoorsy. I was best friends with my brother, and life was great.
In high school I thought life was great too, and when graduation neared, I again, wished I was 5.
Now, I wish I was 5. It's a repeat process for me.
Does your boyfriend now not act like that around you? I haven't been dating a whole lot lately but I still feel like a 5 year old when a guy I like shows some reciprocation. I think that's why I latched onto Stephen. He was a friend, a safely-taken friend I could act like I was five around and have fun with without any confusion about getting serious or notions about what it meant. But then again there was Matt, and I treated him the same way. And I don't think it was quite the friendly game it was with Stephen. But it still felt good, because he's a lot like me. And it still feels good. I have a crush haha, again. (It was what I was talking about earlier.)
But anyway Diane. I loved reading your post- whenever you and me seem like opposite entities I get hit with something like this and it reminds me of some of the reasons we get along. The rain thing- and Dave Matthews... I admire the way you compared the streaky windows to a Monet painting. I wish you were home to go to the art museum with me this summer. I never had a favorite obsession like you do with your "Starry Night" but I do feel something of an overwhelming happiness and peace around art because for some reason I am obsessed with texture and color, which is why although his paintings are essentially paint splatters, I see a lot in Jackson Pollock's stuff.
Dude I have a suggestion if you ever get bored. I don't know if you've tried it but I think you should write a story about what you just posted on. If you hate the idea of writing then I understand, but I think it could be really interesting and it makes you feel better about how u feel.
This post wanders. I do that a lot, sorry...
I wish I was a kid again too. Especially after reading that. It hits me everytime I think about what happens after graduation. I freak out and tell myself and everyone around me that there is no way I'm moving away from home right after. Eventually, yeah probably, but not right after. I don't have the money----- or the security I found I was missing when I moved here to Rock Island.
It's me- after slowly getting away after two years that can still admit that no matter what anybody has to say about a medium- semi-small town- I still want to end up in one. If not Alton, then someplace like it. I wanted to get away- experience new things- and I'm happier than ever that I did, or else a lot of opportunities would have passed me by and I'd still be unhappy as ever wishing I was in a different place. But I didn't mean FOREVER... not yet anyways.
When I was home last weekend, I saw Chelsea. It was nice to see her and all... she sat down with me and Rachelowe and started talking to us. Not surprisingly the first things she had to say were rumors about people I used to know. I turned away a few times, trying to seem quasi-interested but not being able to help my thoughts about how juvenile this situation was in the first place. Needless to say I used to think Chelsea was super cool, when I was little. And I still think back and remember the fun we used to have, but then I also think about where I am today, and where she is. There are pluses and minuses of course.
She still hangs out with all her friends from high school. Or a good amount of them. I still talk to many of mine, but I've also gained friends at SIUE and at EIU, and I like to think my range of friends keeps me well balanced. I got opportunities living at college that she never will. I experienced dorm life, bitchy roommates, a sorority (which I actually always thought woulda been more her route than mine).... and lots more. So I'm happy about where I've come.
There always comes a point in my life where I wish I could go back to being 5. I was fit, happy all the time (ask my dad even), tomboyish, adventurous, athletic and outdoorsy. I was best friends with my brother, and life was great.
In high school I thought life was great too, and when graduation neared, I again, wished I was 5.
Now, I wish I was 5. It's a repeat process for me.
Does your boyfriend now not act like that around you? I haven't been dating a whole lot lately but I still feel like a 5 year old when a guy I like shows some reciprocation. I think that's why I latched onto Stephen. He was a friend, a safely-taken friend I could act like I was five around and have fun with without any confusion about getting serious or notions about what it meant. But then again there was Matt, and I treated him the same way. And I don't think it was quite the friendly game it was with Stephen. But it still felt good, because he's a lot like me. And it still feels good. I have a crush haha, again. (It was what I was talking about earlier.)
But anyway Diane. I loved reading your post- whenever you and me seem like opposite entities I get hit with something like this and it reminds me of some of the reasons we get along. The rain thing- and Dave Matthews... I admire the way you compared the streaky windows to a Monet painting. I wish you were home to go to the art museum with me this summer. I never had a favorite obsession like you do with your "Starry Night" but I do feel something of an overwhelming happiness and peace around art because for some reason I am obsessed with texture and color, which is why although his paintings are essentially paint splatters, I see a lot in Jackson Pollock's stuff.
Dude I have a suggestion if you ever get bored. I don't know if you've tried it but I think you should write a story about what you just posted on. If you hate the idea of writing then I understand, but I think it could be really interesting and it makes you feel better about how u feel.
This post wanders. I do that a lot, sorry...
Survey
-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: SPARKLY FLIP FLOPS
[x] Your eyes: BLUE
[x] Your fears: KILLING SOMEONE IN A CAR ACCIDENT, LOSING SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME, CLOWNS
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: HAHA
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: TIME TO GO BACK TO SLEEP
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: EYES
[x] Your best physical feature: BOOBS
[x] Your bedtime: IT DIFFERS
[x] Your most missed memory: BEING AT THE FARM WITH MY GRANDPARENTS
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: DIET COKE
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: MCDONALDS DUH!
[x] Single or group dates: BOTH
[x] Adidas or Nike: DEPENDS ON THE SHOE
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: CAPPUCCINO!
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: SOMETIMES
[x] Curse: NOT A LOT...ITS UNLADY LIKE
[x] Take a shower everyday: SOMETIMES TWO
[x] Want to go to college: I WANT TO GO BACK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY
[x] Like high school: ESPECIALLY SENIOR YEAR!
[x] Want to get married: MAYBE
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: ASDF JKL; THANKS MRS. WEISS!
[x] Get motion sickness: NOPE
[x] Think you're a health freak: FAR FROM IT
[x] Get along with your parents: OH YES! ALWAYS!
[x] Like thunderstorms: YEAH ESPECIALLY WHEN CORY ALMOST CRASHES THE CAR B/C WE'RE LOOKING AT LIGHTENING
-----------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: I'M THERE EVERYDAY! I'M STARTING TO HATE IT
[x] Eaten sushi: YEAH AND IT MADE ME SICK
[x] Been on stage: YES THE FASHION SHOW
[x] Gone skating: NO
[x] Made homemade cookies: NO BUT I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT
[x] Dyed your hair: EVERYDAY!
[x] Stolen anything: NEVER
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: YES
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: YEAH I WASN'T ABOUT TO WALK ACROSS WIU'S CAMPUS WET!
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: OF COURSE
[x] Cried during a Movie?: OF COURSE
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: TOTALLY TRENT FROM DARIA! HIGH FIVE LAURA
[x] Cut your hair: MY BANGS
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: HAHA TOTALLY MR. ODGEN AND MR. SANDS IN 6TH GRADE
[x] Shoplifted: NO ITS WRONG
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: 30S
[x] How many kids?: 1 MAYBE 2
[x] Describe your dream wedding: I HAVE LIKE 10 DIFFERENT WEDDING THEMES
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: HAPPY FOR SURE!
[x] What country would you most like to visit? FRANCE EVEN THOUGH IT SUCKS
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX-----------------
[x] Best eye color: BLUE
[x] Best hair color: BLACK. I LOVE GUYS WITH BLUE EYES AND BLACK SHAGGY HAIR!
[x] Short or long hair: LIKE I SAID SHAGGY
[x] Best height: TALLER
[x] Best weight: A LITTLE JUNK IN THE TRUNK, BUT THEY CAN'T HAVE MAN BOOBS!
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: AVEDA
[x] Favorite Color(s): BLACK OR PINK
[x] Day/Night: NIGHT
[x] Summer/Winter: FALL
[x] Lace or Satin: SATIN
[x] Fave Cartoon: FAMILY GUY/AQUA TEEN HUNGERFORCE
[x] Fave Food: SPAGHETTI
[x] Fave Movies: Y'ALL SHOULD KNOW THIS BY NOW BUT ADD WEDDING CRASHERS TO THE LIST
[x] Fave sport: VOLLEYBALL
---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: HOLEY JEANS, WIFE BEATER
[x] Drinking: WATER AND RED BULL
[x] Thinking about: NOTHING ANYMORE
[x] Listening to: DMB
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: JUST 10 MINS AGO
[x] Worn jeans: EVERYDAY
[x] Met someone new online: NO
[x] Done laundry: DOING IT NOW
[x] Drove a car: YEP THE JEEP!
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Your friends: YES
[x] Santa Claus: OF COURSE
[x] Tooth Fairy: NO I CAUGHT MY MOM WHEN I WAS YOUNGER
[x] Destiny/Fate: YES
[x] Angels: YES
[x] Ghosts: YES
[x] UFO's: YES
[x] God: I BELIEVE THERE IS A HIGHER FORM
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: SOMETIMES...DIANE IS PLAIN
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: PROBABLY CORY
[x] Are you close to any family member?: MOM AND ANGIE
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: I JUST LISTED A FEW OF THEM IN THE PREVIOUS POST.
[x] The shoes you wore today: SPARKLY FLIP FLOPS
[x] Your eyes: BLUE
[x] Your fears: KILLING SOMEONE IN A CAR ACCIDENT, LOSING SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME, CLOWNS
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: HAHA
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: TIME TO GO BACK TO SLEEP
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: EYES
[x] Your best physical feature: BOOBS
[x] Your bedtime: IT DIFFERS
[x] Your most missed memory: BEING AT THE FARM WITH MY GRANDPARENTS
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: DIET COKE
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: MCDONALDS DUH!
[x] Single or group dates: BOTH
[x] Adidas or Nike: DEPENDS ON THE SHOE
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: CAPPUCCINO!
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: SOMETIMES
[x] Curse: NOT A LOT...ITS UNLADY LIKE
[x] Take a shower everyday: SOMETIMES TWO
[x] Want to go to college: I WANT TO GO BACK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY
[x] Like high school: ESPECIALLY SENIOR YEAR!
[x] Want to get married: MAYBE
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: ASDF JKL; THANKS MRS. WEISS!
[x] Get motion sickness: NOPE
[x] Think you're a health freak: FAR FROM IT
[x] Get along with your parents: OH YES! ALWAYS!
[x] Like thunderstorms: YEAH ESPECIALLY WHEN CORY ALMOST CRASHES THE CAR B/C WE'RE LOOKING AT LIGHTENING
-----------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: I'M THERE EVERYDAY! I'M STARTING TO HATE IT
[x] Eaten sushi: YEAH AND IT MADE ME SICK
[x] Been on stage: YES THE FASHION SHOW
[x] Gone skating: NO
[x] Made homemade cookies: NO BUT I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT
[x] Dyed your hair: EVERYDAY!
[x] Stolen anything: NEVER
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: YES
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: YEAH I WASN'T ABOUT TO WALK ACROSS WIU'S CAMPUS WET!
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: OF COURSE
[x] Cried during a Movie?: OF COURSE
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: TOTALLY TRENT FROM DARIA! HIGH FIVE LAURA
[x] Cut your hair: MY BANGS
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: HAHA TOTALLY MR. ODGEN AND MR. SANDS IN 6TH GRADE
[x] Shoplifted: NO ITS WRONG
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: 30S
[x] How many kids?: 1 MAYBE 2
[x] Describe your dream wedding: I HAVE LIKE 10 DIFFERENT WEDDING THEMES
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: HAPPY FOR SURE!
[x] What country would you most like to visit? FRANCE EVEN THOUGH IT SUCKS
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX-----------------
[x] Best eye color: BLUE
[x] Best hair color: BLACK. I LOVE GUYS WITH BLUE EYES AND BLACK SHAGGY HAIR!
[x] Short or long hair: LIKE I SAID SHAGGY
[x] Best height: TALLER
[x] Best weight: A LITTLE JUNK IN THE TRUNK, BUT THEY CAN'T HAVE MAN BOOBS!
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: AVEDA
[x] Favorite Color(s): BLACK OR PINK
[x] Day/Night: NIGHT
[x] Summer/Winter: FALL
[x] Lace or Satin: SATIN
[x] Fave Cartoon: FAMILY GUY/AQUA TEEN HUNGERFORCE
[x] Fave Food: SPAGHETTI
[x] Fave Movies: Y'ALL SHOULD KNOW THIS BY NOW BUT ADD WEDDING CRASHERS TO THE LIST
[x] Fave sport: VOLLEYBALL
---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: HOLEY JEANS, WIFE BEATER
[x] Drinking: WATER AND RED BULL
[x] Thinking about: NOTHING ANYMORE
[x] Listening to: DMB
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: JUST 10 MINS AGO
[x] Worn jeans: EVERYDAY
[x] Met someone new online: NO
[x] Done laundry: DOING IT NOW
[x] Drove a car: YEP THE JEEP!
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Your friends: YES
[x] Santa Claus: OF COURSE
[x] Tooth Fairy: NO I CAUGHT MY MOM WHEN I WAS YOUNGER
[x] Destiny/Fate: YES
[x] Angels: YES
[x] Ghosts: YES
[x] UFO's: YES
[x] God: I BELIEVE THERE IS A HIGHER FORM
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: SOMETIMES...DIANE IS PLAIN
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: PROBABLY CORY
[x] Are you close to any family member?: MOM AND ANGIE
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: I JUST LISTED A FEW OF THEM IN THE PREVIOUS POST.
Read Me?
I seriously hope you guys read these, because I realize I write the most- an awful damn lot. They will probably become more scarce, but still somewhat steady- when I get back into the groove of my life... in 9 days.
I guess sometimes I need to write them just so that I am doing something. Thomas is on vacation, so our daily back and forth of emails that has become so routine this summer is at a temporary halt. And at a great time too! I actually have something somewhat interesting to talk about. I don't want to otherwise plaster this business up on the blog.
So- a record 5 stories at once and I'm getting sources to call me back one by one, slowly but surely. As long as they're done by next friday ;)
This weekend I actually have plans in the QC. Friday, Darla (another intern) and I are going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and then Saturday we are going to a Swing baseball game (Cards' minor league). I'm sick of waiting for Aaron (DEN, also interning here) to do something, especially now since he's over in Moline doing sports- we have different schedules. So we'll have to see how things work out. Either way- I am going to the movie and the game. I'd go by myself if I had to, but Darla doesn't have anyone to hang out with because her husband is going out of town. She's only a year older than me. I still think it sounds wierd to say married.
So Emily- I know you've been dating but I've never heard any details and would like to if you want to share.
Diane- How's your man treating you, and how's the life of a massage therapist? Are u good to go in every state since you passed that test?
Rachelowe- GET EXCITED FOR Cardinal's baseball!
I'm Laura Griffith, signing off.
And go fuck yourself San Diego.
I guess sometimes I need to write them just so that I am doing something. Thomas is on vacation, so our daily back and forth of emails that has become so routine this summer is at a temporary halt. And at a great time too! I actually have something somewhat interesting to talk about. I don't want to otherwise plaster this business up on the blog.
So- a record 5 stories at once and I'm getting sources to call me back one by one, slowly but surely. As long as they're done by next friday ;)
This weekend I actually have plans in the QC. Friday, Darla (another intern) and I are going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and then Saturday we are going to a Swing baseball game (Cards' minor league). I'm sick of waiting for Aaron (DEN, also interning here) to do something, especially now since he's over in Moline doing sports- we have different schedules. So we'll have to see how things work out. Either way- I am going to the movie and the game. I'd go by myself if I had to, but Darla doesn't have anyone to hang out with because her husband is going out of town. She's only a year older than me. I still think it sounds wierd to say married.
So Emily- I know you've been dating but I've never heard any details and would like to if you want to share.
Diane- How's your man treating you, and how's the life of a massage therapist? Are u good to go in every state since you passed that test?
Rachelowe- GET EXCITED FOR Cardinal's baseball!
I'm Laura Griffith, signing off.
And go fuck yourself San Diego.
Passionless
Hey guys. Sorry I have to rant a little.
Lately things around me are passionless. I hate it. I hate not experiencing fun/exciting/breath taking things. I get bored so easy. Its weird. I keep thinking back to the things that I truly treasure...
*having someone look at me like I'm the only one in the world
*sitting in my car and watching the rain fall on the window b/c it gets smeary and reminds me of a van gogh painting
*the best date ever was with Justin Mathenia. We went to a movie/dinner and that was ordianary but after that he took me under the bridge (one of his favorite spots) and we threw rocks in the river. The stars were out and I said how I wanted to be under a sky full of stars and he said "if you want the stars I'll give you the stars." Then he played Ryan Adams and took me by the hand and slow danced in the middle of the road. It was like something from a movie.
*having tickle fights/playing "i got you last"
*laying on someone listening to their heart beat.
Its like the older we get the less we are child like at heart! I hate it. I want to play in the rain or scrap my knee and and think its the worst thing in the world when really its not. I don't want any responsibilites except for picking up my toys and telling my mom I'm going over to play at a friends house. I want to be oblivious to everything bad that is going on and think that everyone gets along.
Ok well I think I've been mushy too much to too many people. Sorry I was listening to DMB Under the Table and Dreaming and that cd just does something to me. I hate being such a girl sometimes. xoxo
Lately things around me are passionless. I hate it. I hate not experiencing fun/exciting/breath taking things. I get bored so easy. Its weird. I keep thinking back to the things that I truly treasure...
*having someone look at me like I'm the only one in the world
*sitting in my car and watching the rain fall on the window b/c it gets smeary and reminds me of a van gogh painting
*the best date ever was with Justin Mathenia. We went to a movie/dinner and that was ordianary but after that he took me under the bridge (one of his favorite spots) and we threw rocks in the river. The stars were out and I said how I wanted to be under a sky full of stars and he said "if you want the stars I'll give you the stars." Then he played Ryan Adams and took me by the hand and slow danced in the middle of the road. It was like something from a movie.
*having tickle fights/playing "i got you last"
*laying on someone listening to their heart beat.
Its like the older we get the less we are child like at heart! I hate it. I want to play in the rain or scrap my knee and and think its the worst thing in the world when really its not. I don't want any responsibilites except for picking up my toys and telling my mom I'm going over to play at a friends house. I want to be oblivious to everything bad that is going on and think that everyone gets along.
Ok well I think I've been mushy too much to too many people. Sorry I was listening to DMB Under the Table and Dreaming and that cd just does something to me. I hate being such a girl sometimes. xoxo
I love stealing these to fill my waiting time....
-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: brown dress shoes with a buckle
[x] Your eyes: mostly green with brown on the inside. but depending on what I wear they can look both colors. mostly they appear brown
[x] Your fears: losing a family member, tornadoes, rejection
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: "haha" and not just on AIM either
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: my bed is so comfortable I never want to leave. when I get back to my room I'm going to sleep (never happens)
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes, smile, laugh
[x] Your best physical feature: no one's perfect but I just deal with what I was born with ;)
[x] Your bedtime: this summer- between 10-12:30, usually between 1:30- 3:30
[x] Your most missed memory: being friends with my brother back when we were young
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: depends on the day
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: we all know McDonald's
[x] Single or group dates: a date is usually exciting no matter what haha
[x] Adidas or Nike: I went through both phases
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate, all the time
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: neither
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: no
[x] Curse: like a sailor :(
[x] Take a shower everyday: yes if not more than that- unless its a bath, at home
[x] Want to go to college: I went didn't I? still go for God's sake
[x] Like high school: loved it
[x] Want to get married: definitely, eventually
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: kinda, kinda not
[x] Get motion sickness: it's not typical of me no
[x] Think you're a health freak: no but recently I HAVE to exercise whether or not I truly want to and I don't pig out on my favorite junk.... it won't last once I get home but might start again once I hit up EIU
[x] Get along with your parents: we argue like mad, and sometimes I get irritated and grouchy but I love them and they are two of my best friends
[x] Like thunderstorms: not if theres a tornado warning/watch for my county. Other than that- yes, love them
-----------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: I don't think so- that's another thing I gotta do before I leave here...
[x] Eaten sushi: never yuck- Emily and her eel....
[x] Been on stage: at the strip club- to give Sarah her whip ;)
[x] Gone skating: no
[x] Made homemade cookies: no and if I had I couldnt guarantee they'd be edible
[x] Dyed your hair: only half of it haha
[x] Stolen anything: nope
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: never
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: I like school when it's raining
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: duh, I kinda did it last night (EEK, *blush*)
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yes. The Notebook absolutely killed me. I TOLD U OLD PEOPLE MAKE ME SAD!!!
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: yeah Trent from Daria. Also Ron Stoppable is very nerdy, and me likey
[x] Cut your hair: I let Chelsea shave the back of it :( looooooooong ago.....
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: maybe I can't remember my feelings toward Mr. Ogden. I think I had a crush on Mr. Frye's personality though...
[x] Shoplifted: no, I'm not Thomas in WalMart
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: by early 30s, hey- I don't wanna be 50 having kids
[x] How many kids?: 2-4
[x] Describe your dream wedding: it would depend on the dream guy I marry ;)
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: happy
[x] What country would you most like to visit? England. I am a psycho and I would love to tour some historic Beatles places, and some other historic places mostly having to do with death
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX-----------------
[x] Best eye color: I DONT RULE ANYONE OUT OF COURSE but I usually go for light eye color
[x] Best hair color: and medium-dark brown- black hair
[x] Short or long hair: shaggy is good
[x] Best height: taller than me or same size
[x] Best weight: average- not too skinny, not too buff, not too heavy, but in the just right range. kinda the way I view myself only in guy terms
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: Tresemme, tressemme, ooh lala (hehe)
[x] Favorite Color(s): black, red, blue, purple
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: fall, I like it in between but closer to cool
[x] Lace or Satin: satin
[x] Fave Cartoon: Aqua Teen Hungerforce
[x] Fave Food: smores (ha, talk about unhealthy)
[x] Fave Movies: to name a few- Napoleon Dynamite, Forrest Gump, Big Fish, Pirates of the Carribean, Death to Smoochy, Fight Club, What About Bob?, Dracula: Dead and Loving It, The Shining, and many many more
[x] Fave sport: baseball
---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: dark grey pants, orange tank, white button-up overshirt, yellow/orange and brown scarf
[x] Drinking: water with an imitation Crystal Light Lemonade packet mixed in
[x] Thinking about: what my new address will be (my roomie texted me to ask just now) and this weird but strangely pleasant conversation I had last night with a guy who may very well be, my soul mate. Whether or not anything happens with that, because there's a chance it's not even possible. (thomas check your email you'll figure it out)
[x] Listening to: the hum of the air conditioner
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: nope
[x] Worn jeans: not in days
[x] Met someone new online: no, but Emily did!
[x] Done laundry: I don't plan on it until I move home again- in 9 days! can I last??? stay tuned for updates
[x] Drove a car: to work this morning
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Your friends: yah
[x] Santa Claus: it would be fun to again wouldn't it, I envy kids
[x] Tooth Fairy: no
[x] Destiny/Fate: sometimes
[x] Angels: yes
[x] Ghosts: yes
[x] UFO's: it's very possible, but I also believe in nutcases
[x] God: the jury's still out, but I think I'd like to maybe
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: No, why not just use your middle one if ur sick of the first one?- I like mine, but with so many Lauras as friends at EIU, the union grill people thought my name was "minute" cuz they cant pronounce minette. P.S. I was once told I should be more creative, by some random guy I've never seen in my life, who goes by names like "Clark Kent" and "James Bond" when ordering a cheesburger.
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: guys- Matt, girls- Emily in some cases (in some cases not haha)
[x] Are you close to any family member?: my daddy!
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: hearing that someone thinks you're amazing (when they actually mean it)
[x] The shoes you wore today: brown dress shoes with a buckle
[x] Your eyes: mostly green with brown on the inside. but depending on what I wear they can look both colors. mostly they appear brown
[x] Your fears: losing a family member, tornadoes, rejection
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: "haha" and not just on AIM either
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: my bed is so comfortable I never want to leave. when I get back to my room I'm going to sleep (never happens)
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes, smile, laugh
[x] Your best physical feature: no one's perfect but I just deal with what I was born with ;)
[x] Your bedtime: this summer- between 10-12:30, usually between 1:30- 3:30
[x] Your most missed memory: being friends with my brother back when we were young
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: depends on the day
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: we all know McDonald's
[x] Single or group dates: a date is usually exciting no matter what haha
[x] Adidas or Nike: I went through both phases
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate, all the time
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: neither
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: no
[x] Curse: like a sailor :(
[x] Take a shower everyday: yes if not more than that- unless its a bath, at home
[x] Want to go to college: I went didn't I? still go for God's sake
[x] Like high school: loved it
[x] Want to get married: definitely, eventually
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: kinda, kinda not
[x] Get motion sickness: it's not typical of me no
[x] Think you're a health freak: no but recently I HAVE to exercise whether or not I truly want to and I don't pig out on my favorite junk.... it won't last once I get home but might start again once I hit up EIU
[x] Get along with your parents: we argue like mad, and sometimes I get irritated and grouchy but I love them and they are two of my best friends
[x] Like thunderstorms: not if theres a tornado warning/watch for my county. Other than that- yes, love them
-----------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: I don't think so- that's another thing I gotta do before I leave here...
[x] Eaten sushi: never yuck- Emily and her eel....
[x] Been on stage: at the strip club- to give Sarah her whip ;)
[x] Gone skating: no
[x] Made homemade cookies: no and if I had I couldnt guarantee they'd be edible
[x] Dyed your hair: only half of it haha
[x] Stolen anything: nope
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: never
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: I like school when it's raining
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: duh, I kinda did it last night (EEK, *blush*)
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yes. The Notebook absolutely killed me. I TOLD U OLD PEOPLE MAKE ME SAD!!!
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: yeah Trent from Daria. Also Ron Stoppable is very nerdy, and me likey
[x] Cut your hair: I let Chelsea shave the back of it :( looooooooong ago.....
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: maybe I can't remember my feelings toward Mr. Ogden. I think I had a crush on Mr. Frye's personality though...
[x] Shoplifted: no, I'm not Thomas in WalMart
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: by early 30s, hey- I don't wanna be 50 having kids
[x] How many kids?: 2-4
[x] Describe your dream wedding: it would depend on the dream guy I marry ;)
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: happy
[x] What country would you most like to visit? England. I am a psycho and I would love to tour some historic Beatles places, and some other historic places mostly having to do with death
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX-----------------
[x] Best eye color: I DONT RULE ANYONE OUT OF COURSE but I usually go for light eye color
[x] Best hair color: and medium-dark brown- black hair
[x] Short or long hair: shaggy is good
[x] Best height: taller than me or same size
[x] Best weight: average- not too skinny, not too buff, not too heavy, but in the just right range. kinda the way I view myself only in guy terms
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: Tresemme, tressemme, ooh lala (hehe)
[x] Favorite Color(s): black, red, blue, purple
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: fall, I like it in between but closer to cool
[x] Lace or Satin: satin
[x] Fave Cartoon: Aqua Teen Hungerforce
[x] Fave Food: smores (ha, talk about unhealthy)
[x] Fave Movies: to name a few- Napoleon Dynamite, Forrest Gump, Big Fish, Pirates of the Carribean, Death to Smoochy, Fight Club, What About Bob?, Dracula: Dead and Loving It, The Shining, and many many more
[x] Fave sport: baseball
---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: dark grey pants, orange tank, white button-up overshirt, yellow/orange and brown scarf
[x] Drinking: water with an imitation Crystal Light Lemonade packet mixed in
[x] Thinking about: what my new address will be (my roomie texted me to ask just now) and this weird but strangely pleasant conversation I had last night with a guy who may very well be, my soul mate. Whether or not anything happens with that, because there's a chance it's not even possible. (thomas check your email you'll figure it out)
[x] Listening to: the hum of the air conditioner
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: nope
[x] Worn jeans: not in days
[x] Met someone new online: no, but Emily did!
[x] Done laundry: I don't plan on it until I move home again- in 9 days! can I last??? stay tuned for updates
[x] Drove a car: to work this morning
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Your friends: yah
[x] Santa Claus: it would be fun to again wouldn't it, I envy kids
[x] Tooth Fairy: no
[x] Destiny/Fate: sometimes
[x] Angels: yes
[x] Ghosts: yes
[x] UFO's: it's very possible, but I also believe in nutcases
[x] God: the jury's still out, but I think I'd like to maybe
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: No, why not just use your middle one if ur sick of the first one?- I like mine, but with so many Lauras as friends at EIU, the union grill people thought my name was "minute" cuz they cant pronounce minette. P.S. I was once told I should be more creative, by some random guy I've never seen in my life, who goes by names like "Clark Kent" and "James Bond" when ordering a cheesburger.
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: guys- Matt, girls- Emily in some cases (in some cases not haha)
[x] Are you close to any family member?: my daddy!
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: hearing that someone thinks you're amazing (when they actually mean it)
Gay Park Results
Ok so I went trolling for blowjobs with Brian yesterday in a Credit Island Park in Davenport. It was freaky. First we went on a walk-thru with the police chief and saw a stump with a pillow slouched over it. The stump was surrounded by tons of condom wrappers, liquor bottles and Ky-jelly individual packets.
After the chief left, we drove around for about an hour and a half trying to get some of them to follow us. We succeeded in luring in 2 out of about 6. A tan truck, and a red truck. Apparently there is a signal of sorts to let them know you want to get with them. Brian says its two taps on the brake, I noticed a wierd pattern of all of them having their lights on in broad daylight. They were also all middle-aged men in their cars alone, behind tinted windows. Coincidence? Hmmm probably not.
So there are tons of turnarounds where we stopped a few times to see if anyone would follow us. When the tan truck guy did first, it frightened me a little. I mean- if these guys are picking up strange gay men in the park (as the case happens to be- but even if it were strange persons in general)- they might have a gun or knife for protection I'd think. Dude shutoff his truck, and me and Brian soon thereafter drove away. Tan truck dude gave up on us, but still everytime he drove by, at least 5 times more, he stared hardcore like he, and I quote Brian on this one "wanted to use Brian's skull as a humping post."
Red truck guy wasn't so easy to get rid of. He followed us at least 7 times. Finally, we stopped to see if he'd do it again, and it looked like he was gone. Suddenly he was behind us- a little far back but parked behind us nevertheless. Freaky! So we decided to pull up next to him and talk.
Dude had this elaborate story about birdwatching as his alibi. First- nobody birdwatches from the road and only the road- while parking behind other people. Second- he didn't need his lights on- which he turned on and off repeatedly. Third- Dude shows us his camera like he has to persuade us to believe him. It wasn't anywhere near big enough unless he likes his pics to look like specs. Also- when Brian told him we were reporters investigating strange activity in the back loop- dude didn't bother to ask what activity that was. He probably already knew! Why would he ask?
We got out. And the story will be in the Leader. I'm going to copy and paste it into my xanga because ppl without subscriptions won't be able to read it.
After the chief left, we drove around for about an hour and a half trying to get some of them to follow us. We succeeded in luring in 2 out of about 6. A tan truck, and a red truck. Apparently there is a signal of sorts to let them know you want to get with them. Brian says its two taps on the brake, I noticed a wierd pattern of all of them having their lights on in broad daylight. They were also all middle-aged men in their cars alone, behind tinted windows. Coincidence? Hmmm probably not.
So there are tons of turnarounds where we stopped a few times to see if anyone would follow us. When the tan truck guy did first, it frightened me a little. I mean- if these guys are picking up strange gay men in the park (as the case happens to be- but even if it were strange persons in general)- they might have a gun or knife for protection I'd think. Dude shutoff his truck, and me and Brian soon thereafter drove away. Tan truck dude gave up on us, but still everytime he drove by, at least 5 times more, he stared hardcore like he, and I quote Brian on this one "wanted to use Brian's skull as a humping post."
Red truck guy wasn't so easy to get rid of. He followed us at least 7 times. Finally, we stopped to see if he'd do it again, and it looked like he was gone. Suddenly he was behind us- a little far back but parked behind us nevertheless. Freaky! So we decided to pull up next to him and talk.
Dude had this elaborate story about birdwatching as his alibi. First- nobody birdwatches from the road and only the road- while parking behind other people. Second- he didn't need his lights on- which he turned on and off repeatedly. Third- Dude shows us his camera like he has to persuade us to believe him. It wasn't anywhere near big enough unless he likes his pics to look like specs. Also- when Brian told him we were reporters investigating strange activity in the back loop- dude didn't bother to ask what activity that was. He probably already knew! Why would he ask?
We got out. And the story will be in the Leader. I'm going to copy and paste it into my xanga because ppl without subscriptions won't be able to read it.
7.19.2005
7.18.2005
Gay Park
I get to help out tomorrow on my first investigative reporting assignment. Today, Brian (crime reporter) was crusing along in this park known as the place where dead bodies wash up, people get in fights, and apparently middle aged gay men hang out to dearch for free blowjobs. Today he had one of the men follow him to the gas station, which was kind of alarming. Another man just looked at him and licked his lips. He is pretty good looking, but that's kind of freaky when you look at the particulars of the situation. He said he's been to plenty of gay bars (which is hilarious bc most men are homophobes) but he's been with his gf- and when men hit on him she grabs him and starts making out with him. Ha. But speaking of the park- No one has been arrested or in trouble down there, but he is going to check it out some more. Tomorrow, I, as an intern, get to pose as his ladyfriend/bodyguard and we are going to figure out if they try and hit on him when he's with a girl. He's like bait in this experiment and I'm the variable. I can't wait to see what creepy bitches are down there. YAY! Something other than myspace to keep me busy during the day!
Also, I feel kind of bad because I'm broke as a joke and so he bought me lunch at this new place downtown so we could discuss the story. He's a cool guy.
Also, I feel kind of bad because I'm broke as a joke and so he bought me lunch at this new place downtown so we could discuss the story. He's a cool guy.
Personality Test
| INFJ - the counselor You scored 18% I to E, 15% N to S, 19% F to T, and 47% J to P! |
Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously. You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely. Your group summary: idealists (NF) Your type summary: INFJ |
My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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| Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on Ok Cupid |
Eventful Weekend
Finally! I haven't had one all summer, not really anyways. Here's how it went:
Friday
Came home around 9:30, talked to parents, looked at why their Internet might be so slow (I don't know), chatted for awhile and took a shower. I couldn't figure out the AC in the van so I sweated my ass off the entire 4 hours home. Other than that it was a pleasant ride. I called Eric, but my phone rang once and I guess he hung up, so I watched Haunted Places on the travel channel with daddy till I fell asleep.
Saturday
Woke up around 10 and got ready to go to spaghetti at Grandma's with mom. There were tons of people there. When it was over around noon, mom and I changed and went swimming at Becky's. Got a little bit of sun, and the water was perfect! Had to go home after awhile and get ready for church. When we got to church it was the most boring preist ever and he spoke for as long as he possibly could- so we cut out after communion. After that my mom went to Becky's and my dad and I went to the Jersey County Fair. I checked out the 4-H stuff, we got a corn dog, and we watched a mechanical bull that looked pretty interesting. We headed to the grandstand and saw antique tractors, mini-rods and the smoke blowers- I don't know what they're called that's what my dad calls them. We had to leave once the hotrods got going because even with earplugs that noise is unbearable. Some little kid down the way left his ear plugs off! I was amazed! Around 9:30 we went to Aungt Becky's and ate the rest of out ribbons fries- yay greasy fair food- and visited until 10. I called Emily and Megan said the bachelorette party was about to leave. [NOTE: Emily had to throw her brother Chris' fiancee a last minute bachelorette thing. We played it by ear.] We went to Tony's and after I brought up the idea of a drag show down at Bubby and Sissy's, Emily remembered Boxers and Briefs in Centerville. So around midnight or later we packed up all our ppl: Me, Em, Megan, Sarah (bachelorette) and Rachelowe- and headed to the strip club. There, some interesting things happened. Sarah said it wasn't really her thing but she was glad she could say she came, but then you could tell as the night progressed she was getting really into it. This one stripper gave her a free stage lapdance, then later Emily paid for a firefighter lapdance from probably the sexiest stripper ever. We gave her some more money to put up in his orange thong. All night Rachelowe kep saying this one guy looked familiar... then when he came over to the table she asked him if he went to SIUE and his face turned red. Then I guess to relieve his anxiety that apparently he hadn't been there long and already somone from school recognized him... he gave us free lapdances and tried to make funny conversation with us. It made me more at ease and I finally let a stipper touch me. I didn't say he could lick my ear, but it happened anyway and it wasn't so bad ;). It was hilarious though, he was grindin' on Emily and he was like, "so, what's your major?" and we all busted up laughing as he moved his way aroud the table. Dude had some nice muscles, tho I usually don't go for that. It was kinda ironic tho. Then he made mention of English 102 papers and I speculated that he might be somewhere around James' age, which was somewhat alarming. But then I guess not, cuz it's possible he was older and also 19 isn't THAT much younger.... We made it home around 4:15. (or I did after I dropped Rachelowe off)
Sunday
I slept till 1 p.m. then Ashley came back to get her car, which had been parked at my house all weekend while she visited her chiropractor guy in STL. I visited with her before she left, and then my mom dyed my hair. We put half up in a pony tail on the top of my head so the top layer of my hair is my original color but the bottom layer is brown-black. I like it. I need to get it layered more soon so you can see it. I also need a trim. After that I lounged around all day- had chicken and veggie kabobs for my homecooked meal of the weekend. Watched part of Harold and Kumar go to White Castle- which I thought was not much raunchier than Dude Where's My Car, and def. not as raunchy as any of the Scary Movies. Frankly, I kinda liked it. Then I drove back, and got here around 10:15. Coulda used better sleep though. Better luck tonight.
All in all this weekend kicked ass. Yay! 2 more weeks!
P.S. I signed Matt Dorner's wall on facebook and he messaged me that I should get ahold of him when I come into town because we should hang out. Ha! I gotta tell you that would be quite interesting. I'm looking into it... Remember when I had a fatty crush on him!? I know you do....
Friday
Came home around 9:30, talked to parents, looked at why their Internet might be so slow (I don't know), chatted for awhile and took a shower. I couldn't figure out the AC in the van so I sweated my ass off the entire 4 hours home. Other than that it was a pleasant ride. I called Eric, but my phone rang once and I guess he hung up, so I watched Haunted Places on the travel channel with daddy till I fell asleep.
Saturday
Woke up around 10 and got ready to go to spaghetti at Grandma's with mom. There were tons of people there. When it was over around noon, mom and I changed and went swimming at Becky's. Got a little bit of sun, and the water was perfect! Had to go home after awhile and get ready for church. When we got to church it was the most boring preist ever and he spoke for as long as he possibly could- so we cut out after communion. After that my mom went to Becky's and my dad and I went to the Jersey County Fair. I checked out the 4-H stuff, we got a corn dog, and we watched a mechanical bull that looked pretty interesting. We headed to the grandstand and saw antique tractors, mini-rods and the smoke blowers- I don't know what they're called that's what my dad calls them. We had to leave once the hotrods got going because even with earplugs that noise is unbearable. Some little kid down the way left his ear plugs off! I was amazed! Around 9:30 we went to Aungt Becky's and ate the rest of out ribbons fries- yay greasy fair food- and visited until 10. I called Emily and Megan said the bachelorette party was about to leave. [NOTE: Emily had to throw her brother Chris' fiancee a last minute bachelorette thing. We played it by ear.] We went to Tony's and after I brought up the idea of a drag show down at Bubby and Sissy's, Emily remembered Boxers and Briefs in Centerville. So around midnight or later we packed up all our ppl: Me, Em, Megan, Sarah (bachelorette) and Rachelowe- and headed to the strip club. There, some interesting things happened. Sarah said it wasn't really her thing but she was glad she could say she came, but then you could tell as the night progressed she was getting really into it. This one stripper gave her a free stage lapdance, then later Emily paid for a firefighter lapdance from probably the sexiest stripper ever. We gave her some more money to put up in his orange thong. All night Rachelowe kep saying this one guy looked familiar... then when he came over to the table she asked him if he went to SIUE and his face turned red. Then I guess to relieve his anxiety that apparently he hadn't been there long and already somone from school recognized him... he gave us free lapdances and tried to make funny conversation with us. It made me more at ease and I finally let a stipper touch me. I didn't say he could lick my ear, but it happened anyway and it wasn't so bad ;). It was hilarious though, he was grindin' on Emily and he was like, "so, what's your major?" and we all busted up laughing as he moved his way aroud the table. Dude had some nice muscles, tho I usually don't go for that. It was kinda ironic tho. Then he made mention of English 102 papers and I speculated that he might be somewhere around James' age, which was somewhat alarming. But then I guess not, cuz it's possible he was older and also 19 isn't THAT much younger.... We made it home around 4:15. (or I did after I dropped Rachelowe off)
Sunday
I slept till 1 p.m. then Ashley came back to get her car, which had been parked at my house all weekend while she visited her chiropractor guy in STL. I visited with her before she left, and then my mom dyed my hair. We put half up in a pony tail on the top of my head so the top layer of my hair is my original color but the bottom layer is brown-black. I like it. I need to get it layered more soon so you can see it. I also need a trim. After that I lounged around all day- had chicken and veggie kabobs for my homecooked meal of the weekend. Watched part of Harold and Kumar go to White Castle- which I thought was not much raunchier than Dude Where's My Car, and def. not as raunchy as any of the Scary Movies. Frankly, I kinda liked it. Then I drove back, and got here around 10:15. Coulda used better sleep though. Better luck tonight.
All in all this weekend kicked ass. Yay! 2 more weeks!
P.S. I signed Matt Dorner's wall on facebook and he messaged me that I should get ahold of him when I come into town because we should hang out. Ha! I gotta tell you that would be quite interesting. I'm looking into it... Remember when I had a fatty crush on him!? I know you do....
7.15.2005
Pomeroy
It looks like Pomeroy is playing in the District tonight. I wish I could see them but it would be alone and I'm going home tonight.
Just thought of you Diane, when I saw their name on the pamphlet.
Everyone says this block party is the one that sucks anyways. Pssh.... Maybe another time!
Just thought of you Diane, when I saw their name on the pamphlet.
Everyone says this block party is the one that sucks anyways. Pssh.... Maybe another time!
Baseball game
Rachelowe-
I think it's safe to say I'm going to the game with you. YAY! It's getting close and I haven't heard from April, even tho I've emailed her twice- so she'll have to come down for Fright Fest.
I hope you're feeling better so we can have that drink- don't worry, I don't wanna get drunk. But the place is your choice- (preferably in Alton) wherever u want to go. Just decide and let me know when I call you up on my way home from el tractor pull tomorrow night. Hell, if you want, you can go to the tractor pull. If you like that sort of thing (I can't stand the noise but it's still kinda fun).
Feel better for god's sake! I'ma coming home!! It's 3:15 and the excitement is building. I am just not motivated to do a damn thing.
-Laura
I think it's safe to say I'm going to the game with you. YAY! It's getting close and I haven't heard from April, even tho I've emailed her twice- so she'll have to come down for Fright Fest.
I hope you're feeling better so we can have that drink- don't worry, I don't wanna get drunk. But the place is your choice- (preferably in Alton) wherever u want to go. Just decide and let me know when I call you up on my way home from el tractor pull tomorrow night. Hell, if you want, you can go to the tractor pull. If you like that sort of thing (I can't stand the noise but it's still kinda fun).
Feel better for god's sake! I'ma coming home!! It's 3:15 and the excitement is building. I am just not motivated to do a damn thing.
-Laura
I love Post...
Do you really just love post? Or are you pointing at things and saying you love them?
I love post.
Right now, I am between stories. Today is a slow day and I don't expect to pick anything up until next week, but I might look into which casino around here is the most popular with younger people. And whatnot. I donno. With two weeks to go, it feels really wierd to start something if I may not get a chance to finish it. What are ya gonna do?
Ashley just called. She is going to be in the St. Louis area, so I might see her this weekend, who knows? Also, Eric and Caleb are partying at Caleb's house, and I might have to visit them, then I wanna have a drink with Rachelowe for her birthday with anyone who wants to come, then I'm going to the tractor pull with my dad, and spaghetti at Grandma's. It's starting to look like one helluva busy weekend, and it starts tonight! Excited!
Hmmmmmmmm. I just went down to the Rock On Rock Island block party in the District, which is really close to work, and I had me a chili dog and a lemonade. At least something is summery around here. I got my first front page article not long ago, about lawns, gardens and shrubs in the Qc dying. They've passed their dormancy stages and they are dead. It never rains here! Look on the weather map- all over IL is covered with rain and scattered T-storms. But not the good old Quad Cities. Look's like God has something against this place. And their crops. My dad is always calling me and telling me that it is raining it seems like, even if it's only been 3 or so times. I hope I dont have to drive into it on my way home. Eek!
Ahh, this lemonade is fabulous. Maybe if its not raining this weekend I can go swimming at Aunt Becky's between spaghetti and tractor pullin'. I've been using this neutrogena daily moisturizer that is a light sunless tanner and I have a wicked tan line on my foot where the lotion doesn't go. And if you're not careful, orangey looking kneecaps is what you'll end up with. But I have not had a chance to get outside and tan, I don't want to spend money I don't have to tan here (maybe up in Chucktown for awhile)... and I have really pale legs where u can see all my veins haha. It's just a little bit of pigment to cover that and make me less self conscious, that's all.
Time to go. Lala dumdeedum I'm bored.
I love post.
Right now, I am between stories. Today is a slow day and I don't expect to pick anything up until next week, but I might look into which casino around here is the most popular with younger people. And whatnot. I donno. With two weeks to go, it feels really wierd to start something if I may not get a chance to finish it. What are ya gonna do?
Ashley just called. She is going to be in the St. Louis area, so I might see her this weekend, who knows? Also, Eric and Caleb are partying at Caleb's house, and I might have to visit them, then I wanna have a drink with Rachelowe for her birthday with anyone who wants to come, then I'm going to the tractor pull with my dad, and spaghetti at Grandma's. It's starting to look like one helluva busy weekend, and it starts tonight! Excited!
Hmmmmmmmm. I just went down to the Rock On Rock Island block party in the District, which is really close to work, and I had me a chili dog and a lemonade. At least something is summery around here. I got my first front page article not long ago, about lawns, gardens and shrubs in the Qc dying. They've passed their dormancy stages and they are dead. It never rains here! Look on the weather map- all over IL is covered with rain and scattered T-storms. But not the good old Quad Cities. Look's like God has something against this place. And their crops. My dad is always calling me and telling me that it is raining it seems like, even if it's only been 3 or so times. I hope I dont have to drive into it on my way home. Eek!
Ahh, this lemonade is fabulous. Maybe if its not raining this weekend I can go swimming at Aunt Becky's between spaghetti and tractor pullin'. I've been using this neutrogena daily moisturizer that is a light sunless tanner and I have a wicked tan line on my foot where the lotion doesn't go. And if you're not careful, orangey looking kneecaps is what you'll end up with. But I have not had a chance to get outside and tan, I don't want to spend money I don't have to tan here (maybe up in Chucktown for awhile)... and I have really pale legs where u can see all my veins haha. It's just a little bit of pigment to cover that and make me less self conscious, that's all.
Time to go. Lala dumdeedum I'm bored.
7.14.2005
Photo shoot
See I got bored and decided to take tons of pics of myself. Of over 100 I'm guessing, here are some of the ones I kept- like Survivor. Haha.
Planning the Summer
I know being spontaneous can be cool, which is probably what will end up happening. BUT- here's what I want to do this summer if anyone wants to join me:
Days I have:
August
m1
t2
w3
th4
f5
sa6- possibly Cards game with Rachel or Six Flags with April depending
su7
m8
t9
w10
th11
f12
sa13- movin on up- to Chucktown, that is
The rest of the days are open for the following ideas:
-golfing
-the ZOO
-drinking in STL
-drinking in Alton
-Art Museum
-mini golf
-sand volleyball
-Cards game
-movies- I'm gonna wanna see that new one with Ewan McGregor
-Dave and Buster's
-Wild Country
Also open to more ideas. Or if anybody wants to join. Let me know good days for the ones that need planning.
Days I have:
August
m1
t2
w3
th4
f5
sa6- possibly Cards game with Rachel or Six Flags with April depending
su7
m8
t9
w10
th11
f12
sa13- movin on up- to Chucktown, that is
The rest of the days are open for the following ideas:
-golfing
-the ZOO
-drinking in STL
-drinking in Alton
-Art Museum
-mini golf
-sand volleyball
-Cards game
-movies- I'm gonna wanna see that new one with Ewan McGregor
-Dave and Buster's
-Wild Country
Also open to more ideas. Or if anybody wants to join. Let me know good days for the ones that need planning.
Fuel Injector Woes
So 3 out of 6 of the Corsica's fuel infectors were shot. It's gonna cost about $130 each. So I'm still broke. The guy wanted to put new spark plugs in but that was a few hundred more, so daddy said no thanks- I don't think we're there quite yet.
Anyway the poor thing wasn't getting enough gas into the engine when accelerating or going uphill. So it'll be fixed today, and hopefully it will have cured the problem. The head mechanic drove it and felt it and that's what he said it most likely was. I guess there's no guarantees but daddy's going to get it fixed either way.
Rachelowe I sent my friend April an e-mail and told her I'll most likely go to Fright Fest so maybe she would want to wait until then, but I still haven't heard back. I donno when I'd ever get a chance to be that close! Do I owe u anything?
Anyway the poor thing wasn't getting enough gas into the engine when accelerating or going uphill. So it'll be fixed today, and hopefully it will have cured the problem. The head mechanic drove it and felt it and that's what he said it most likely was. I guess there's no guarantees but daddy's going to get it fixed either way.
Rachelowe I sent my friend April an e-mail and told her I'll most likely go to Fright Fest so maybe she would want to wait until then, but I still haven't heard back. I donno when I'd ever get a chance to be that close! Do I owe u anything?
7.13.2005
My Corsica
is acting up. I took it 1000 different places and left work early to see what's wrong with it. Whenever I accelerate or go uphill, and sometimes when I'm driving at a steady pace, it stalls a bit. It doesn't completely die but it feels like the engine loses horsepower and then starts acting normal again.
So that I wouldn't get taken by auto shops in the area bc I don't know what I'm doing, my parents made an impromptu trip to the QC to pick her up, and leave me with the van. I'm at work early because they just left about 15 minutes ago. I hope they make it home, but either it better be fixed, or it better stall once on the way home so dad can feel what its like and get it fixed. I'ma coming home to get 'er this weekend, as planned. But I hate the van, and am no longer looking forward to driving 4 hours without a cd player. What will I DO TO STAY AWAKE!?!
That's news for now, stay tuned for updates.
So that I wouldn't get taken by auto shops in the area bc I don't know what I'm doing, my parents made an impromptu trip to the QC to pick her up, and leave me with the van. I'm at work early because they just left about 15 minutes ago. I hope they make it home, but either it better be fixed, or it better stall once on the way home so dad can feel what its like and get it fixed. I'ma coming home to get 'er this weekend, as planned. But I hate the van, and am no longer looking forward to driving 4 hours without a cd player. What will I DO TO STAY AWAKE!?!
That's news for now, stay tuned for updates.
7.12.2005
My ADVISER told me to chill out
With all the time on my hands, I always seem to find something to freak out about. Weeks ago, it was graduating on time.I wrote my adviser, who is the journalism dept. chair, a 1500-word e-mail about it. He wrote back:
Very nice, reassuring. Something to bring a smile to my face right before bed.
This place reminds me everyday that I wish it was Halloween. Feels like fall, save for the heat of course- but everything is so dry, the leaves are falling off the trees. My dad told me it poured like a bitch last night. It did not rain one fraction of an inch here. I felt sprinkles as I walked to my car this morning, so maybe it will hit us today. Hopefully not before I get out to the Mercer County Fair and grab me a carnie or two to interview. Haha.
Not much new, off to work.
Laura, don't panic. I checked your file again and you're still good to go.
Very nice, reassuring. Something to bring a smile to my face right before bed.
This place reminds me everyday that I wish it was Halloween. Feels like fall, save for the heat of course- but everything is so dry, the leaves are falling off the trees. My dad told me it poured like a bitch last night. It did not rain one fraction of an inch here. I felt sprinkles as I walked to my car this morning, so maybe it will hit us today. Hopefully not before I get out to the Mercer County Fair and grab me a carnie or two to interview. Haha.
Not much new, off to work.
7.11.2005
Rachel's no longer a minor!
Happy B-day Rachelowe! I am hoping you will not read this at least for 2 more hours. Cuz technically right now u are, in fact, 20.
Diane that is really wierd.
Maybe you can see the future or something, wouldn't that be a nasty case of deja vu for the both of you if that actually happens now?
I have an obsession with the following song so I thought I'd share before I go to bed and try to catch up on the sleep I missed last night.
Caring is Creepy- The Shins
Love that song. The Garden State Soundtrack is dominating my mind and mood.
Diane that is really wierd.
Maybe you can see the future or something, wouldn't that be a nasty case of deja vu for the both of you if that actually happens now?
I have an obsession with the following song so I thought I'd share before I go to bed and try to catch up on the sleep I missed last night.
Caring is Creepy- The Shins
I think I'll go home and mull this over
Before I cram it down my throat
At long last it's crashed, the colossal mass
Has broken up into bits in my moat.
Lift the mattress off the floor
Walk the cramps off
Go meander in the cold
Hail to your dark skin
Hiding the fact you're dead again
Underneath the power lines seeking shade
Far above our heads are the icy heights that contain all reason
It's a luscious mix of words and tricks
That let us bet when you know we should fold
On rocks I dreamt of where we'd stepped
And the whole mess of roads we're now on.
Hold your glass up, hold it in
Never betray the way you've always known it is.
One day I'll be wondering how
I got so old just wondering how
I never got cold wearing nothing in the snow.
This is way beyond my remote concern
Of being condescending
All these squawking birds won't quit.
Building nothing, laying bricks.
Love that song. The Garden State Soundtrack is dominating my mind and mood.
This is soooo weird!!!
Ok so I woke up this morning with an okward feeling. I had a dream about Caleb. So I get online put up an away messge that says "thats strange." Then fall back asleep. When I wake up I have two messages one from AndyG and Caleb both saying they had dreams about me. So I instantly IM Caleb back b/c we both had dreams about each other. Its crazy!!! Caleb and I had the same dream!!! In both of our dreams I was crying and hugging him, but we can't remember what I was crying about. I've always wonder if its possible when you dream about someone if that person is having the same dream and now I have proof. Its totally freaky but way cool at the same time. Now we just have to figure out what I was crying about.
My damn lunchbox is missing
I don't know where it went! I'm going to do some serious room cleaning tonight because it has to be in my room or in the newsroom, and from what I can see it's not in here. It makes me freak out because for a stupid reason I'm sure that pack makes me feel safer at work because my mommy uses it at home. Therefore also I can't lose it, but I can't imagine where it would have gone besides my car- where it also isn't.
Anyways, 3 more weeks. actually it's 18 days. sounds delightful eh? I'm coming home this weekend but I won't get to see anybody unless we all go on that Budweiser tour. Besides that, if I can't go then whoever else isn't going I can see- but most probably it will be a family weekend. I'll get home late friday and want to relax- then sat at 6:30 my dad wants me to go to the Jersey County TRACTOR PULL Yee Haw! Then I have to leave Sunday afternoon to get here before dark.
After THAT weekend, which will go by quickly, I will have 11 days including one weekend where hopefully I'll finally get to see some Swing baseball (a Cards minor league team here) which I will even if I have to do it alone... and then the next weekend the parents are coming to get me. The countdown is getting more and more exciting. I'm just lonely and a little out of place here, and it only seems to be getting worse instead of better. Ahh hang in there....
Anyways, 3 more weeks. actually it's 18 days. sounds delightful eh? I'm coming home this weekend but I won't get to see anybody unless we all go on that Budweiser tour. Besides that, if I can't go then whoever else isn't going I can see- but most probably it will be a family weekend. I'll get home late friday and want to relax- then sat at 6:30 my dad wants me to go to the Jersey County TRACTOR PULL Yee Haw! Then I have to leave Sunday afternoon to get here before dark.
After THAT weekend, which will go by quickly, I will have 11 days including one weekend where hopefully I'll finally get to see some Swing baseball (a Cards minor league team here) which I will even if I have to do it alone... and then the next weekend the parents are coming to get me. The countdown is getting more and more exciting. I'm just lonely and a little out of place here, and it only seems to be getting worse instead of better. Ahh hang in there....
7.10.2005
So sweet and true!
You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
Whoa pictures!
This is awesome! I didn't realize you could post pics. I remeber we tried a long time ago.
Hey Diane I tried to do that cool thing u do with picture but this is all I can do. It's pretty cool if u ask me tho.
Alright, gtg. BYe!
You love me...smile!
Hey y'all I was just seeing if this works. This will totally make our blog waayyy more interesting!!! xoxo
P.S.-You have to look at the real blog. Not just the generic thing you look at!
7.08.2005
Everybody else was doing it
TEN Random Things About Me
10. I Love sports
09. I like American eagle
08. I like to make out with chicks
07. I go to SIU
06. I am the coolest person you will ever meet
05. I don't like the frats at SIU
04. I have a huge dong
03. I played hockey
02. I Had sex with your mother
01. Really its freaking huge (My dong)
NINE Places I've Visited-
09. Bethalto IL
08. The Ozarks
07. Mexico
06. Florida Pan handle
05. Bradly University
04. Western University
03. Chicago, IL
02. Alanta GA
01. Godfrey IL
EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08. Get a real job
07. Buy a country
06. Rule the world
05. become President (2024)
04. Get done with college
03. Do your mother
02. have sex with a jap
01. Name a kid ESPN
SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
07. BE HOT
06. Keep me on my toes
05. let me do my own thing when i want
04. Like to cut loose and have fun
03. play golf....But i want her to be good but not better than me
02. Like sports
01. my friends must like you
SIX Things I Believe (in)
06. Ghosts
05. Friends
04. myself
03. everything happens for a reason
02. some people are good
01. Sportscenter
FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
05. Money
04. loosing one of my friends
03. Not having ESPN
02. School
01. Girls
FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom (dorm)
04. Computer
03. Porn
02. Radio
01. Posters
THREE Things I Do Every Day
03. Poop
02. Work
01. drink beer
TWO Things I'm Trying To Not Do Right Now
02. Watch ESPN
01. watch porn
ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
01. I cant pick just one i guess it would be the people i cant see every day
10. I Love sports
09. I like American eagle
08. I like to make out with chicks
07. I go to SIU
06. I am the coolest person you will ever meet
05. I don't like the frats at SIU
04. I have a huge dong
03. I played hockey
02. I Had sex with your mother
01. Really its freaking huge (My dong)
NINE Places I've Visited-
09. Bethalto IL
08. The Ozarks
07. Mexico
06. Florida Pan handle
05. Bradly University
04. Western University
03. Chicago, IL
02. Alanta GA
01. Godfrey IL
EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08. Get a real job
07. Buy a country
06. Rule the world
05. become President (2024)
04. Get done with college
03. Do your mother
02. have sex with a jap
01. Name a kid ESPN
SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
07. BE HOT
06. Keep me on my toes
05. let me do my own thing when i want
04. Like to cut loose and have fun
03. play golf....But i want her to be good but not better than me
02. Like sports
01. my friends must like you
SIX Things I Believe (in)
06. Ghosts
05. Friends
04. myself
03. everything happens for a reason
02. some people are good
01. Sportscenter
FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
05. Money
04. loosing one of my friends
03. Not having ESPN
02. School
01. Girls
FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom (dorm)
04. Computer
03. Porn
02. Radio
01. Posters
THREE Things I Do Every Day
03. Poop
02. Work
01. drink beer
TWO Things I'm Trying To Not Do Right Now
02. Watch ESPN
01. watch porn
ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
01. I cant pick just one i guess it would be the people i cant see every day
Now for Rachelowe.
Thomas, that was weird- we posted like two minutes apart. I was confused when I saw your post I wondered where mine went hehe.
Anyways Rachel, don't worry so much. I got your text message but not til this monring. Hey if your birthday wasn't on a Tuesday I woulda made plans with ya. You're one of the most common ppl I hang out with at home. I don't really enjoy going to get drunk very often but I woulda for your special occassion.
Don't feel so bad! You have plenty of friends who love you, and u know everyone in existance! Guess what I did on my 21st birthday? Since all my friends at school except the DEN were under 21? I met my old roommate Ashley at a bar, after she was already wasted. She, in turn, threw up and proceeded to leave me with her creepy and bisexual roommate I didn't know who was trying to get with some dudes the whole time. So there I was, waiting for some DEN ppl I knew from work but never really hung out with, by myself, at a bar I'd never been to, surrounded by drunk ppl who didn't know I existed. Later, Aaron, Woike, Jenni and Hillary showed up and things got a lot better, but by then the moment had passed and I was just mellowed out for the night, ready for bed. We went to Jenni's after the bar closed (on a Wed. mind you) to drink more, where I proceeded to feel tired, then suddenly kinda sick from all the hard alcohol, skipping the fun drunk part. When I went home I ate crackers and drank some Pepto and went to sleep. All in all it was ok, but obviously nothing fun to remember and/or spectacular. Ur b-day will surely beat that.
Happy B-Day (early) Rachelowe. I'll call you when you're no longer underage ;)
Anyways Rachel, don't worry so much. I got your text message but not til this monring. Hey if your birthday wasn't on a Tuesday I woulda made plans with ya. You're one of the most common ppl I hang out with at home. I don't really enjoy going to get drunk very often but I woulda for your special occassion.
Don't feel so bad! You have plenty of friends who love you, and u know everyone in existance! Guess what I did on my 21st birthday? Since all my friends at school except the DEN were under 21? I met my old roommate Ashley at a bar, after she was already wasted. She, in turn, threw up and proceeded to leave me with her creepy and bisexual roommate I didn't know who was trying to get with some dudes the whole time. So there I was, waiting for some DEN ppl I knew from work but never really hung out with, by myself, at a bar I'd never been to, surrounded by drunk ppl who didn't know I existed. Later, Aaron, Woike, Jenni and Hillary showed up and things got a lot better, but by then the moment had passed and I was just mellowed out for the night, ready for bed. We went to Jenni's after the bar closed (on a Wed. mind you) to drink more, where I proceeded to feel tired, then suddenly kinda sick from all the hard alcohol, skipping the fun drunk part. When I went home I ate crackers and drank some Pepto and went to sleep. All in all it was ok, but obviously nothing fun to remember and/or spectacular. Ur b-day will surely beat that.
Happy B-Day (early) Rachelowe. I'll call you when you're no longer underage ;)
The Guinness Diet Blog
Holy shit blogs are in the news today. This dude drank Guinness for a week straight, 4 to 10 pints a day. The only other thing he consumed was a pint of milk and a vitamin c supplement. Talk about a beer binge.
http://theguinessdiet.blogspot.com
Again, same blog we use. More later as I finish stories and finish reading the news.
http://theguinessdiet.blogspot.com
Again, same blog we use. More later as I finish stories and finish reading the news.
Murderer's blog
Isn't it amazing and excrutiatingly frightening that someone could use blogger, the very same blog we use to keep up with one another's thoughts, lives, and to do stupid surveys, to write down his thoughts about killing? I read this in the newspaper this morning and I decided to search it. I found his blog site.
http://fifthnail.blogspot.com/
It belongs to sex offender Joesph Duncan III. He kidnapped a family along with their friend recently, and although they found the little girl, Shasta Groene, in a restaurant with him, and recovered her, the others are believed to be dead. Google his name and see what you get.
Anyways, sorry to post such depressing news. But it is interesting to me.
http://fifthnail.blogspot.com/
It belongs to sex offender Joesph Duncan III. He kidnapped a family along with their friend recently, and although they found the little girl, Shasta Groene, in a restaurant with him, and recovered her, the others are believed to be dead. Google his name and see what you get.
Anyways, sorry to post such depressing news. But it is interesting to me.
7.07.2005
Yeah...I'm wasting time until I have to work
1. What is your middle name? MICHELLE
2. What color underwear are you wearing now?HAHA I'M NOT!
3. What are you listening to right now? DIVORCE COURT ON TV
4. what are the last 2 digits in ur phone number?22
5. What was the last thing you ate? NACHOS
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? PINK
7. How is the weather right now? HOT! ITS 102 DEGREES!
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? ANGIE
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? EYES
10. Favorite type of Food? SALADS
11. Do you drink? OF COURSE
12. Do you smoke? SOMETIMES
13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? WAY TOOO MANY TIMES
14. hair color? RIGHT NOW...BROWN WITH BLONDE AND RED
15. Eye Color? BLUE
16. Do you wear contacts? NO
17. Single?NO
18. Favorite Month? OCTOBER B/C OF HALLOWEEN
19. Even or Odds? ODDS
20. Last Movie you Watched? WAR OF THE WORLDS
21. Last kiss? MIKE THIS MORNING
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? NO WAY
23. Lake or Ocean? BOTH
24. Hugs or Kisses? BOTH
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? VANILLA
26. Favorite place? MY FARM
27. The name of your last or current boyfriend/girlfriend: MIKE
28. What do you want to be when you grow up? DO YOU HAVE TIME? THERES A LIST
29. What books are you reading? COSMO
30. Piercings? BELLY BUTTON...I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THE NIPPLES
31. Fav. Movie? PFFF...SUPER TROOPERS, ANCHORMAN, YOU PEOPLE KNOW
32. Fav. baseball Team? STL CARDINALS
33. Fav. American Idol? KELLY!
34. Any Pets? PAWS AND SMOKIE! COPPER AND MURPHY
35. AIM/MSN SN? DIDEESTAR
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? BUTTER AND SALTED
37. Dogs or cats? BOTH
38. Favorite Flower? STAR GAZER LILY
39. What do you do when you wake up in the A.M.? GO BACK TO SLEEP UNTIL THE PM
40. Do you still talk to your best friends from intermediate school? LATELY I HAVE BEEN
41. What's on your desk? THE COMPUTER GENIUS
42. Rock Concert or symphony? ROCK CONCERT...CROWD SURFING ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!
43. Play or Opera? PLAY BUT I WOULD LIKE TO GO TO AN OPERA
44. Have you ever fired a gun? YEP, ITS A LAW WHEN YOU LIVE IN TEXAS.
45. Do you like to travel by plane? YEAH, YOU GET THERE SO MUCH QUICKER
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? RIGHTY
47. Target or WalMart? BOTH DEPENDS ON IF ITS 1 IN THE MORNING OR NOT
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? JUST ONE
49. Are you missing someone? ALWAYS
50. Did you like this survey? SURE
2. What color underwear are you wearing now?HAHA I'M NOT!
3. What are you listening to right now? DIVORCE COURT ON TV
4. what are the last 2 digits in ur phone number?22
5. What was the last thing you ate? NACHOS
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? PINK
7. How is the weather right now? HOT! ITS 102 DEGREES!
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? ANGIE
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? EYES
10. Favorite type of Food? SALADS
11. Do you drink? OF COURSE
12. Do you smoke? SOMETIMES
13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? WAY TOOO MANY TIMES
14. hair color? RIGHT NOW...BROWN WITH BLONDE AND RED
15. Eye Color? BLUE
16. Do you wear contacts? NO
17. Single?NO
18. Favorite Month? OCTOBER B/C OF HALLOWEEN
19. Even or Odds? ODDS
20. Last Movie you Watched? WAR OF THE WORLDS
21. Last kiss? MIKE THIS MORNING
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? NO WAY
23. Lake or Ocean? BOTH
24. Hugs or Kisses? BOTH
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? VANILLA
26. Favorite place? MY FARM
27. The name of your last or current boyfriend/girlfriend: MIKE
28. What do you want to be when you grow up? DO YOU HAVE TIME? THERES A LIST
29. What books are you reading? COSMO
30. Piercings? BELLY BUTTON...I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THE NIPPLES
31. Fav. Movie? PFFF...SUPER TROOPERS, ANCHORMAN, YOU PEOPLE KNOW
32. Fav. baseball Team? STL CARDINALS
33. Fav. American Idol? KELLY!
34. Any Pets? PAWS AND SMOKIE! COPPER AND MURPHY
35. AIM/MSN SN? DIDEESTAR
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? BUTTER AND SALTED
37. Dogs or cats? BOTH
38. Favorite Flower? STAR GAZER LILY
39. What do you do when you wake up in the A.M.? GO BACK TO SLEEP UNTIL THE PM
40. Do you still talk to your best friends from intermediate school? LATELY I HAVE BEEN
41. What's on your desk? THE COMPUTER GENIUS
42. Rock Concert or symphony? ROCK CONCERT...CROWD SURFING ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!
43. Play or Opera? PLAY BUT I WOULD LIKE TO GO TO AN OPERA
44. Have you ever fired a gun? YEP, ITS A LAW WHEN YOU LIVE IN TEXAS.
45. Do you like to travel by plane? YEAH, YOU GET THERE SO MUCH QUICKER
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? RIGHTY
47. Target or WalMart? BOTH DEPENDS ON IF ITS 1 IN THE MORNING OR NOT
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? JUST ONE
49. Are you missing someone? ALWAYS
50. Did you like this survey? SURE
Copy and paste job.
Guys this is from my xanga but I didn't want to take the time to edit it so just ignore the parts you know, thanks
So, what is up?
I'm experiencing a busy week, and I love the rush compared to the regular, wait for a story, do the story, go home. I'm actually waiting on phone calls from several people presently, so I decided to post.
This is going by so fast. Soon it will be over. Soon as in.... oh, 21 days. I'm just working to get some great clips right now. I don't have anything spectacular but a few I can say I'm proud of, and 3 more weeks of chances to go.
This weekend I'm going to be here alone, and I'm going to take the opportunity to go see a play called Oedipus at Colona. Funny, I think there's a Colona around here as well, although the one in the play is obviously not in Illinois. I really liked classical mythology at SIUE, and in high school. It's one of my wierd interests that not a lot of people share. Oedipus is one of my favorite myths, because of the whole story having to do with a designed fate, and the connection with Freud's human complex theories, such as the Oedipus and Jocasta complexes.
I saw a CSI episode one night about the Jocasta complex that blew my mind. For those of you that don't know, Jocasta was Oedipus's mom, and also his wife. In the episode, a homosexual patient at a mental hospital was killed. As the story unraveled and intimate details of the victim and the murderer spilled out, we find out that the a fellow patient at the hospital is severely messed up because of the way he was raised. When his father died, his mother used him as a replacement husband, and had sex with him and all that. It drove him crazy, and several suicide attempts put him in the hospital. His mother kept sending him love letters, but the nurses stopped them, because everytime he would get one, he would go into a psychotic fit. Once she was cut off, his mother changed her name and got a job at the hospital to be closer to him. (Apparently, he wasn't the only one mentally off.) When he saw her, the suicide attempts began again, but he never told anyone about her, I guess he was afraid.
To separate himself sexually from his mother, he had sex with the homosexual character who was later murdered. By his mom, because she was jealous.
Even though he hated his mom and was repulsed by her, she was still his mother, so he tried to cover up her deed and confessed to the police. But they found her guilty because those TV CSIs sure are slick ;)
Moral of the story, that was a creepy episode. But great.
I forgot where I was going I got so into that story. Oh yes. Plays, and things I like to do but no one else will do them with me. My old roommate Kate (SIUE, Cougar Village) was a theater major/dance minor. I've always been interested in the stuff, so I went to go see her a lot. I remember this one play, it was hilarious! It was called, and excuse the spelling Bobrauschenbergamerica, all one word just like that. It was all over the place and extremely entertaining. The night I saw it I could have described it better- here's from the other blog:
"She put on a 50's bikini, with her platinum blond wig, danced around pouring fake vodka all over a big black tarp.... she put on the finishing touch- the olive, and then proceeded to use the giant martini as a slip 'n' slide."
The bikini was flippin tan and the scene was HILARIOUS. I kinda miss Kate I wonder if she graduated and ended up in South Carolina. Or better yet- is she still with Alex? hmm...
So, what is up?
I'm experiencing a busy week, and I love the rush compared to the regular, wait for a story, do the story, go home. I'm actually waiting on phone calls from several people presently, so I decided to post.
This is going by so fast. Soon it will be over. Soon as in.... oh, 21 days. I'm just working to get some great clips right now. I don't have anything spectacular but a few I can say I'm proud of, and 3 more weeks of chances to go.
This weekend I'm going to be here alone, and I'm going to take the opportunity to go see a play called Oedipus at Colona. Funny, I think there's a Colona around here as well, although the one in the play is obviously not in Illinois. I really liked classical mythology at SIUE, and in high school. It's one of my wierd interests that not a lot of people share. Oedipus is one of my favorite myths, because of the whole story having to do with a designed fate, and the connection with Freud's human complex theories, such as the Oedipus and Jocasta complexes.
I saw a CSI episode one night about the Jocasta complex that blew my mind. For those of you that don't know, Jocasta was Oedipus's mom, and also his wife. In the episode, a homosexual patient at a mental hospital was killed. As the story unraveled and intimate details of the victim and the murderer spilled out, we find out that the a fellow patient at the hospital is severely messed up because of the way he was raised. When his father died, his mother used him as a replacement husband, and had sex with him and all that. It drove him crazy, and several suicide attempts put him in the hospital. His mother kept sending him love letters, but the nurses stopped them, because everytime he would get one, he would go into a psychotic fit. Once she was cut off, his mother changed her name and got a job at the hospital to be closer to him. (Apparently, he wasn't the only one mentally off.) When he saw her, the suicide attempts began again, but he never told anyone about her, I guess he was afraid.
To separate himself sexually from his mother, he had sex with the homosexual character who was later murdered. By his mom, because she was jealous.
Even though he hated his mom and was repulsed by her, she was still his mother, so he tried to cover up her deed and confessed to the police. But they found her guilty because those TV CSIs sure are slick ;)
Moral of the story, that was a creepy episode. But great.
I forgot where I was going I got so into that story. Oh yes. Plays, and things I like to do but no one else will do them with me. My old roommate Kate (SIUE, Cougar Village) was a theater major/dance minor. I've always been interested in the stuff, so I went to go see her a lot. I remember this one play, it was hilarious! It was called, and excuse the spelling Bobrauschenbergamerica, all one word just like that. It was all over the place and extremely entertaining. The night I saw it I could have described it better- here's from the other blog:
"She put on a 50's bikini, with her platinum blond wig, danced around pouring fake vodka all over a big black tarp.... she put on the finishing touch- the olive, and then proceeded to use the giant martini as a slip 'n' slide."
The bikini was flippin tan and the scene was HILARIOUS. I kinda miss Kate I wonder if she graduated and ended up in South Carolina. Or better yet- is she still with Alex? hmm...
Everybody else is doing it...
TEN random things about me:
10. I use to be cross-eyed
9. I love anything that has to do with stars
8. I cry when I'm mad
7. I use to be a "wigger"
6. I use baby wipes after I pooie
5. I put mayo on grilled cheese
4. I like to sleep naked
3. I love the smell of flower shops
2. I'm addicted to Red Bull
1. Like Rachelowe I am a momma's girl
NINE places I have been:
9. Godfrey, IL
8. San Antonio, TX
7. Orlando, FL
6. Nashville, TN
5. Lake of the Ozarks, MO
4. Lake Geneve, WI
3. Austin, TX
2. Chicago, IL
1. Columbus, OH
EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
8. Travel especially to Paris(even though France Sucks!!!)
7. Have kids which means I'd have to get married b/c I don't think its right to have a kid if you're not married. (Ok, how many did that shock?)
6. Sky dive
5. Have someone paint me
4. Become rich and famous
3. Visit Willy Wonka and his Chocolate Factory
2. Road trip across the US with y'all (I really want to do that. I think we should!)
1. Bone Cory
SEVEN Ways to my heart:
7. Don't be a jerk
6. Only have eyes for me
5. Never cheat
4. Show me lots of attention and flourshes me with little romanctic guestures
3. Tell me bedtime stories
2. Be spontanteous
1. Get along with my family
SIX things I believe (/in):
6. Karma
5. Aliens
4. Ghosts
3. Noah's Arc
2. Everything has a reason
1. Events/our lives are already mapped out
FIVE things I am afraid of:
5. Clowns
4. Being alone
3. Someone close to me dying
2. Killing someone in a car accident
1. Anyone that chases after me
FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom:
4. Mike:)
3. Photo albums
2. Kurt Cobain cloth poster (at home)
1. All my boxes of memories under my bed (here and home)
THREE things I do everyday:
3. Take naps
2. Waste too much time at the computer
1. Some form of exercise
TWO things I am trying not to do right now:
2. Fall asleep
1. Bit my nails
ONE person I want to see right now:
1. My mommy
10. I use to be cross-eyed
9. I love anything that has to do with stars
8. I cry when I'm mad
7. I use to be a "wigger"
6. I use baby wipes after I pooie
5. I put mayo on grilled cheese
4. I like to sleep naked
3. I love the smell of flower shops
2. I'm addicted to Red Bull
1. Like Rachelowe I am a momma's girl
NINE places I have been:
9. Godfrey, IL
8. San Antonio, TX
7. Orlando, FL
6. Nashville, TN
5. Lake of the Ozarks, MO
4. Lake Geneve, WI
3. Austin, TX
2. Chicago, IL
1. Columbus, OH
EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
8. Travel especially to Paris(even though France Sucks!!!)
7. Have kids which means I'd have to get married b/c I don't think its right to have a kid if you're not married. (Ok, how many did that shock?)
6. Sky dive
5. Have someone paint me
4. Become rich and famous
3. Visit Willy Wonka and his Chocolate Factory
2. Road trip across the US with y'all (I really want to do that. I think we should!)
1. Bone Cory
SEVEN Ways to my heart:
7. Don't be a jerk
6. Only have eyes for me
5. Never cheat
4. Show me lots of attention and flourshes me with little romanctic guestures
3. Tell me bedtime stories
2. Be spontanteous
1. Get along with my family
SIX things I believe (/in):
6. Karma
5. Aliens
4. Ghosts
3. Noah's Arc
2. Everything has a reason
1. Events/our lives are already mapped out
FIVE things I am afraid of:
5. Clowns
4. Being alone
3. Someone close to me dying
2. Killing someone in a car accident
1. Anyone that chases after me
FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom:
4. Mike:)
3. Photo albums
2. Kurt Cobain cloth poster (at home)
1. All my boxes of memories under my bed (here and home)
THREE things I do everyday:
3. Take naps
2. Waste too much time at the computer
1. Some form of exercise
TWO things I am trying not to do right now:
2. Fall asleep
1. Bit my nails
ONE person I want to see right now:
1. My mommy
7.06.2005
Real quick:
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I eat fast food weekly
[ ] I have many scars.
[ x] I've been out of this country.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] i am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[] I love chocolate.
[] i bite my nails.
[ x] I play video games.
[] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[ x] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ x] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] Been close to love
[ x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] bitten somebody
[ x] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x ] Stole something from your job
[x] Lied to a friend
[] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[x ] Been to Europe
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x ] Been to Canada
[ x] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x ] Been snowboarding
[ x] Been Skiing
[x] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[x] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[x ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I eat fast food weekly
[ ] I have many scars.
[ x] I've been out of this country.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] i am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[] I love chocolate.
[] i bite my nails.
[ x] I play video games.
[] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[ x] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ x] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] Been close to love
[ x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] bitten somebody
[ x] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x ] Stole something from your job
[x] Lied to a friend
[] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[x ] Been to Europe
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x ] Been to Canada
[ x] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x ] Been snowboarding
[ x] Been Skiing
[x] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[x] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[x ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now
A little different for once
TEN Random Things About Me
10. I feel horrible if I don't exercise a couple times a week now! (wow, wierd)
09. I used to be a huge tomboy.
08. I'm wearing khaki pants.
07. I do surveys and e-mails and blog posts at work and hope my editor doesn't come over and give me something to do (I'm waiting for a call dammit!
06. I am an obsessive compulsive hand washer, but I love mud.
05. I joined a sorority when everyone said I wasn't the type.
04. I sleep with a blanket, at 21. (What!? It's my Beatles blanket!)
03. My middle name apparently means "pussy" (like the cat you perv) in French.
02. I play hacky sack in the newsroom at school.
01. I've known what I wanted to be since my freshman year in high school.
NINE Places I've Visited- (not impressive)
09. Biloxi, Mississippi
08. The Ozarks
07. Virginia Beach
06. a hotel in West Virginia
05. Ohio State University
04. Hannibal, MO
03. Chicago, IL
02. Amana, IA
01. Cahokia Mounds (ha, I live a sheltered life)
EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08. fly in a plane
07. get married
06. have kids
05. hit up Hawaii and Vegas
04. have articles published in a widely known magazine
03. go to culinary school
02. take a tour of the stars homes in CA haha
01. write a will (good thinking)
SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
07. laugh at my jokes, for real
06. take me paddle boating
05. pick me some wildflowers
04. introduce me to your family
03. surpise me with something you made with me in mind
02. don't be an alcoholic, but know how to have fun sometimes
01. get along well with my parents
SIX Things I Believe (in)
06. ghosts
05. love
04. myself
03. death
02. happily ever after
01. the McPike Mansion (ha)
FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
05. my parents dying
04. tornadoes
03. having to move away from home right after college and not being able to afford it
02. driving in the rain
01. not being good at what I do
FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom (dorm)
04. Beatles blanket
03. mini fridge
02. a green slice of carpet
01. Christmas lights
THREE Things I Do Every Day
03. wake up
02. eat
01. go to sleep
TWO Things I'm Trying To Not Do Right Now
02. get caught being lazy
01. do what I'm doing-nothing- for the rest of the day
ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
01. List- my parents, Matt, April, Stephen, Ashley, Caleb, Diane, Thomas, Em, Rachelowe, Cory, Danielle, Alix, the list never ends, so don't feel bad if you're not on here B/C I miss you
10. I feel horrible if I don't exercise a couple times a week now! (wow, wierd)
09. I used to be a huge tomboy.
08. I'm wearing khaki pants.
07. I do surveys and e-mails and blog posts at work and hope my editor doesn't come over and give me something to do (I'm waiting for a call dammit!
06. I am an obsessive compulsive hand washer, but I love mud.
05. I joined a sorority when everyone said I wasn't the type.
04. I sleep with a blanket, at 21. (What!? It's my Beatles blanket!)
03. My middle name apparently means "pussy" (like the cat you perv) in French.
02. I play hacky sack in the newsroom at school.
01. I've known what I wanted to be since my freshman year in high school.
NINE Places I've Visited- (not impressive)
09. Biloxi, Mississippi
08. The Ozarks
07. Virginia Beach
06. a hotel in West Virginia
05. Ohio State University
04. Hannibal, MO
03. Chicago, IL
02. Amana, IA
01. Cahokia Mounds (ha, I live a sheltered life)
EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08. fly in a plane
07. get married
06. have kids
05. hit up Hawaii and Vegas
04. have articles published in a widely known magazine
03. go to culinary school
02. take a tour of the stars homes in CA haha
01. write a will (good thinking)
SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
07. laugh at my jokes, for real
06. take me paddle boating
05. pick me some wildflowers
04. introduce me to your family
03. surpise me with something you made with me in mind
02. don't be an alcoholic, but know how to have fun sometimes
01. get along well with my parents
SIX Things I Believe (in)
06. ghosts
05. love
04. myself
03. death
02. happily ever after
01. the McPike Mansion (ha)
FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
05. my parents dying
04. tornadoes
03. having to move away from home right after college and not being able to afford it
02. driving in the rain
01. not being good at what I do
FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom (dorm)
04. Beatles blanket
03. mini fridge
02. a green slice of carpet
01. Christmas lights
THREE Things I Do Every Day
03. wake up
02. eat
01. go to sleep
TWO Things I'm Trying To Not Do Right Now
02. get caught being lazy
01. do what I'm doing-nothing- for the rest of the day
ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
01. List- my parents, Matt, April, Stephen, Ashley, Caleb, Diane, Thomas, Em, Rachelowe, Cory, Danielle, Alix, the list never ends, so don't feel bad if you're not on here B/C I miss you
7.05.2005
Good Monday err.. Tuesday morning...
I am so behind a day because of the holiday. Damn Thomas you sure had a busy weekend. So you found the church for the wedding eh? Had you guys ever figured out a date yet? We are getting so old. When I was at my friend April's party I found out she was turning 23 not 22. I know she just graduated but I was completely unaware or it slipped my mind that she took a year off for basic training or something before she started school. She can get deployed now that she is out of school. Anyway I don't know why it surprised me, a lot of my school friends are older. Just makes you think.
You saw Rachelowe's legs? I attempted this weekend to get some tan on my legs. I pretty much failed that mission. Oh well. In about 24 days... I'll really get to relax. Wow it's going by quickly, and for that I am glad. I might even miss the QC a bit, for the area, not for the ppl for there are none that I know. Still.
What exactly happened at this 4th of July party? I keep hearing that it was so great and I feel like I really missed out!
Diane- congrats on your test. I was talking the other day about how I've never flown on a plane, so since you're staying in Texas maybe I will have to save up some money and keep track of ticket prices. Maybe I'm getting a second chance. That is, if you will have me ;) For a round trip right now the prices are from $333. I've seen them like as low as $319 but not much better.
Well, must get to work.
You saw Rachelowe's legs? I attempted this weekend to get some tan on my legs. I pretty much failed that mission. Oh well. In about 24 days... I'll really get to relax. Wow it's going by quickly, and for that I am glad. I might even miss the QC a bit, for the area, not for the ppl for there are none that I know. Still.
What exactly happened at this 4th of July party? I keep hearing that it was so great and I feel like I really missed out!
Diane- congrats on your test. I was talking the other day about how I've never flown on a plane, so since you're staying in Texas maybe I will have to save up some money and keep track of ticket prices. Maybe I'm getting a second chance. That is, if you will have me ;) For a round trip right now the prices are from $333. I've seen them like as low as $319 but not much better.
Well, must get to work.
7.04.2005
Fave Pics of the Year
41 pics from my junior year.
Some from home.
Some from school.
Some from the DEN.
Some from ASA.
Some aren't on my Webshots. I wanted to start a new album because they have unlimited photo hosting. My webshots is still up, but you can look at this album by going here:
http://www.snapfish.com/thumbnailshare/AlbumID=24778559/t_=28108107
Some from home.
Some from school.
Some from the DEN.
Some from ASA.
Some aren't on my Webshots. I wanted to start a new album because they have unlimited photo hosting. My webshots is still up, but you can look at this album by going here:
http://www.snapfish.com/thumbnailshare/AlbumID=24778559/t_=28108107
Happy 4th, You
Happy 4th of July!
How went my weekend?
Went to April Mae June July's for her graduation party. Not a whole lot of people came, but I met some of her friends from how and it was pretty interesting. The backyard was set up real nice with bar decs (her dad used to own his own bar) and tiki torches around the pool, a keg in the garage next to a tent/bar.
It was a good time. We ate tons of food- italian beef sandwiches, cake and tons of veggies (April's a vegetarian if you didn't know). As it grew closer to 1 a.m., April's friends were growing antsy because they wanted to go to this bar, City Tavern, which as it turns out is mucho like Stix. For you guys, since you haven't been there- this is Stix- A little annoying... you know you don't want to go but you end up there anyway to see who came, because it's "the place to see people and be seen." Either that or you got drunk and figured you could put up with the crowds to get your groove on a little.
Anyway- to City we went, then back to April's to crash.
Slept in, or moreso than I have this summer. When we awoke, we got in the pool and laid out and swam all day with April's step mom, dad and step sister. I was working on a tan. Later we went to the mall to hit up Victoria's Secret. Suddenly her friend Mary called and asked if we wanted to take the train (the Metra, from University Park) into Chicago and watch the fireworks there.We went.
Taste of Chicago was happening down in Grant Park so we got some garlic cheese bread because they had run out of everything else and we already bought food tickets. We found ourselves a nice little standing area on a path next to some bushes. April ate her cheesebread, even though she had gotten flustered and dropped it on the ground. We did not brave those crazy crowds for nothing, I guess I don't blame her.
We watched an incredible fireworks show over Lake Michigan. When we headed back, we decided to walk around town before we hit up the train station. We walked down toward Michigan Avenue. I couldn't believe what I saw before my eyes. April was stunned too, and I wish I had brought my camera. Wall to wall people flooded Michigan Avenue and connecting streets. The people were taking over the city. It looked like something I had only seen in movies before. We walked. ON MICHIGAN AVENUE, around, downtown, across the river and past the Wrigley Building. Amazing. All the people, it was a little overwhelming, but at the same time, incredible. We stopped at Millenium Park, to make a wish in the new fountain. I found myself staring at the people. Trying to figure out who was a tourist, and who was a townie. All the bars were packed. I wonder how many people I knew were down there.
Around 11:15 we decided to go to the Randolph Street station and we caught a train back to University Park and drove back to Bradley. As soon as we got around 1:45 I showered and went to sleep. The melting ice from the vendors at "Taste" had run into the street... with all the people herding themselves through the maze of humanity, a sludgy substance had clung to April's jeans (which I had borrowed) and turned my green sandals a brownish color.
This morning I woke up and drove back to the QC. It rained a lot of the way, but strangely I wasn't scared of the rain on the road, as I have been usually since the accident with Diane and I on the way to Texas. The area hasn't had rain all month, and the grass is a hard, yellow hay-like mass. We needed it. Could have used it a day later. I saw on the news that East Moline had their 4th of July parade regardless, and many people had watched it from their car. All we need is another bout like that tonight, while I sleep. That's so peaceful, to fall asleep to the rain falling to the ground, and to wake up and go to work smelling fresh rain and enjoying the cool air.
I'm sorry I missed Emily's party. Em- your message, "I'd like to thank everyone from this weekend. It was the BEST weekend of my LIFE!! I hope I NEVER forget ANY of it!!! :-D (but sad cuz marc is gone :-()" makes me wish especially that I had been there. And I wish I coulda met Marc. But I guess it doesn't sound like he's going anywhere anytime soon. You should post some details, I'd love to hear about it!
Currently getting things cleaned up around the dorm, listening to some relaxing music. Garden State Soundtrack. I recently watched it again. The first time I had a hard time taking it all in. And it had to live up to the standards that Woike had implanted in my head. It's not as great as he says it is, but thought provoking, and overall good movie.
Have a great remainder of the holiday.
How went my weekend?
Went to April Mae June July's for her graduation party. Not a whole lot of people came, but I met some of her friends from how and it was pretty interesting. The backyard was set up real nice with bar decs (her dad used to own his own bar) and tiki torches around the pool, a keg in the garage next to a tent/bar.
It was a good time. We ate tons of food- italian beef sandwiches, cake and tons of veggies (April's a vegetarian if you didn't know). As it grew closer to 1 a.m., April's friends were growing antsy because they wanted to go to this bar, City Tavern, which as it turns out is mucho like Stix. For you guys, since you haven't been there- this is Stix- A little annoying... you know you don't want to go but you end up there anyway to see who came, because it's "the place to see people and be seen." Either that or you got drunk and figured you could put up with the crowds to get your groove on a little.
Anyway- to City we went, then back to April's to crash.
Slept in, or moreso than I have this summer. When we awoke, we got in the pool and laid out and swam all day with April's step mom, dad and step sister. I was working on a tan. Later we went to the mall to hit up Victoria's Secret. Suddenly her friend Mary called and asked if we wanted to take the train (the Metra, from University Park) into Chicago and watch the fireworks there.We went.
Taste of Chicago was happening down in Grant Park so we got some garlic cheese bread because they had run out of everything else and we already bought food tickets. We found ourselves a nice little standing area on a path next to some bushes. April ate her cheesebread, even though she had gotten flustered and dropped it on the ground. We did not brave those crazy crowds for nothing, I guess I don't blame her.
We watched an incredible fireworks show over Lake Michigan. When we headed back, we decided to walk around town before we hit up the train station. We walked down toward Michigan Avenue. I couldn't believe what I saw before my eyes. April was stunned too, and I wish I had brought my camera. Wall to wall people flooded Michigan Avenue and connecting streets. The people were taking over the city. It looked like something I had only seen in movies before. We walked. ON MICHIGAN AVENUE, around, downtown, across the river and past the Wrigley Building. Amazing. All the people, it was a little overwhelming, but at the same time, incredible. We stopped at Millenium Park, to make a wish in the new fountain. I found myself staring at the people. Trying to figure out who was a tourist, and who was a townie. All the bars were packed. I wonder how many people I knew were down there.
Around 11:15 we decided to go to the Randolph Street station and we caught a train back to University Park and drove back to Bradley. As soon as we got around 1:45 I showered and went to sleep. The melting ice from the vendors at "Taste" had run into the street... with all the people herding themselves through the maze of humanity, a sludgy substance had clung to April's jeans (which I had borrowed) and turned my green sandals a brownish color.
This morning I woke up and drove back to the QC. It rained a lot of the way, but strangely I wasn't scared of the rain on the road, as I have been usually since the accident with Diane and I on the way to Texas. The area hasn't had rain all month, and the grass is a hard, yellow hay-like mass. We needed it. Could have used it a day later. I saw on the news that East Moline had their 4th of July parade regardless, and many people had watched it from their car. All we need is another bout like that tonight, while I sleep. That's so peaceful, to fall asleep to the rain falling to the ground, and to wake up and go to work smelling fresh rain and enjoying the cool air.
I'm sorry I missed Emily's party. Em- your message, "I'd like to thank everyone from this weekend. It was the BEST weekend of my LIFE!! I hope I NEVER forget ANY of it!!! :-D (but sad cuz marc is gone :-()" makes me wish especially that I had been there. And I wish I coulda met Marc. But I guess it doesn't sound like he's going anywhere anytime soon. You should post some details, I'd love to hear about it!
Currently getting things cleaned up around the dorm, listening to some relaxing music. Garden State Soundtrack. I recently watched it again. The first time I had a hard time taking it all in. And it had to live up to the standards that Woike had implanted in my head. It's not as great as he says it is, but thought provoking, and overall good movie.
Have a great remainder of the holiday.