Well, right now I'm suppose to be at a wedding, curtis' twin sister's wedding that is. But I am not, because I ended our relationship last night. So in doing so he drove me back home round 1 in the morning from Carrollton. I was really depressed last night, esp since I drank, but now I'm much better. When you meet someone's whole family and some friends, you really see that person for what they are, and he was an ass needless to say. I'm kinda sad things didn't work out, but its for the better. I'm gettin kinda good at this whole breaking up thing and coping with it, I guess I just wasn't 'in love' as I thought I was. Well "I guess this is growing up".
I talked to my mom today for about an hour after I woke up, I don't ever talk to my mom. Very strange. Anywho, she thinks Curtis is gay/bi/or bi curious. Which now, after someone has planted that idea in my brain, its like opening a new door, and I now see those things. So I'm kinda curious if he really is or not. I know that is horrible to say about someone, but now its kinda obvious. Here is a list (and sorry if I am stereotyping gay men) :
1) He really enjoys shopping (like really!)
2) He buys most of his clothes from a) Express for Men b) Banana Republic c) The Gap
3) He is really, really, really like a girl when he shops ex: He has me go find him different sizes while he looks at different clothes, nothing looks good on him, and my favorite "no, you can't go look at clothes cuz I need u to tell me if it looks good, matches, and if you like it" Going shopping w/your boyfriend is suppose to be fun, I HATED IT (& u guys know how much I like shopping), I felt like the man in the relationship who dreds shopping with his girlfriend
4) He was overly excited about Bessingers (candy place at Galaria (sp?)) having chocolate covered blackberries (which they only have in a seasonal thing, which he knew about, & they are like $35 a pound)
5) He told me once he loves candles, and candle light, and he told me that in his old house he had candles everywhere, and he'd rather go by candle light than a light bulb
6) He totally set this dinner up to take my dad out for retirement and my godfather since he got me money for my car accident. It was at a place called Morton's in Clayton, we went there once before and he knows the manager. When we went there before we had a couple of drinks at the bar and the manager brought us 2 apps, which we didn't order (kinda strange) BUT we got the bill and it was like over $50, and the manager told us not to worry about it, it was on the house. Well, Curtis told me before that he did some work from him (i'm assuming on the internet since that is what he does) so I didn't think too much about it, but still even stranger. Also, Curtis told me that we could go there sometime and dinner would also be on the house. OK, so we arranged for the six of us to eat dinner there one night, the manager told us to bring our own wine with dinner so we didn't have to pay their overpriced bill. strange. so we did. We went and ate a ton of expensive fancy food, and we had like a butt ton of waiters and the manager waiting on us, it was freakin crzy, I've been to really nice resturants, some nicer than that, and have NEVER EVER had that happen before. They even brought us doubles of some stuff we ordered. So, we never even got the bill and we were gonna leave a tip, Curtis went and asked the manager how much the bill would have been so we could leave a tip, supposedly the dinner was over $500!! That is really freakin weird and strange at the same time...... So I wonder what he "really" did for this guy ( he seemed kinda like he had the hots for curtis) since curtis wont tell me exactly why we had this nice fancy dinner FOR FREE!
7) When we first went and ate dinner with my parents he ordered a glass of (bear with me, don't know how to spell it) Chardonay, which is a white wine that women normally order.
8) When we went to NC he brought 'wet wipes' because he said when we eat dorritos in the car we will have something to wipe our hands on, he said he thinks of these things cuz he has a daughter (well, i'm not his daughter and he is a man..... a 'normal' guy would probably lick his fingers, wipe it on a pant leg... hell thats what I do... back for the bottom of the pant leg, right Cory?)
9) He loves 80s music.... like really loves...... and he kinda dances kinda gay in the car when he hears an 80s song he really likes
10) he plucks his eyebrows.... i don't think he'd have a unibrow... but that is where he 'plucks'
11) He didn't even try to get me to stay in Carrollton, or change my mind about breaking up with him ( i don't really think that makes him gay, but damn, if u love me as much as u say you do, then after our first fight, u'd try to make up, or make things better not drive me home after u've been drinking from Carrollton @ 1am
12) He'd have me open his cans of beer, isn't it suppose to be the other way around? He said he didn't have fingernails to get under the tab and it hurt his fingers
13) He can dress... man can he dress....
.... more later ....... tell me what you guys think .......
9.10.2005
9.09.2005
9.08.2005
Answer this...
Rachel what movie were you watching? I need more explanation on why they compared them to guns. K, thanks.
9.07.2005
Here's to you, SHORT BUSES AND STEVIES
http://eiuhalloffame.com/blog/
This is why Eastern rocks you guys' schools' socks.
(and you'll understand the title of this post if you read it a bit)
Matt's herre. And I'm in the newsroom. And it's 11:40 p.m. Damnit. Hopefully out by midnight!
Wish me luck!
This is why Eastern rocks you guys' schools' socks.
(and you'll understand the title of this post if you read it a bit)
Matt's herre. And I'm in the newsroom. And it's 11:40 p.m. Damnit. Hopefully out by midnight!
Wish me luck!
1* First grade teacher's name: dont know
2* Last word you said: Shit
3* Last song you sang: John Walsh-Rocky mountain way
4* Last person you hugged: some girl at the bar
5* Last thing you laughed at: thad lamb (roomate)
6* Last time you said "I dont remember": today sometime
7* Last time you cried: im a man i dont cry
*PRESENT*
9* What color socks are you wearing: White
10* What's under your bed: a naked lady
11* What time did you wake up today: 7:47
12* Current taste in your mouth: water
13* Current hair: brown
15* Current annoyance: nothing
16* Current longing: a girl i like in c dale
17* Current desktop background: the girl from a girl next door you know the hot one
18* Current worry: school
19* Current hate: nothing
20* Current favorite article of clothing: cards stuff
21* Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: a set of eyes are good but a nice set of tits are great!!!!!
22* Last CD that you listened to: Dave live in central park
23* Favorite place to be: Anywhere when im around my friends
24* Least favorite place to be: classroom
25* Time you wake up in the morning: did i drink that night
26* If you could play an instrument: bass
27* Favorite color(s): gree and blue
28* Do you believe in Heaven: yes
29* How tall are you: 6'1"
30* Current favorite word/saying: Damn mother fuck shit
31* Favorite book: Playboy
32* Favorite season: fall winter
33* One person from your past you wish you could talk to: hummmmm i talk to everbody i want to
*FUTURE*
35* Where do you want to go for college? SIUC
36* What is your career going to be like: golf course superintendent
37* How many kids do you want: two boys
*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: no never
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: dog
41* Been to Yew Nork: no
42* Been to Florida: yes with my old man
43* Been to California: no
44* Been to Hawaii: no
45* Been to Mexico: Yes with my mom and sister
46* Been to China: NO dont want to
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: all the time
52* Do you have a crush on someone: kinda but i think i blew it i called her when i was drunk
53* What book are you reading now? text books
54* Worst feeling in the world: to be told you have cancer
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? look at my morning wood
56* How many rings before you answer: i just pick it up
57* Future daughter's name: i will let my wife do that
58* Future son's name: Buck
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
60* If you could have any job you wanted: to be a movie star
61* Wish you were here:
62* College plans: get done by the age 30
63* Piercings: dick
64* Do you do drugs: all the time
65* Do you drink: when am i not drinking
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: what my mom got
68* What are you most scared of: nothing
69* What clothes do you sleep in: nothing
70* Who is the last person that called you: mother
71* Where do you want to get married: i will let my wife do that
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: be big and buff
73* Who do you really hate: dumb people
74* Been In Love: if i knew what it was i could tell you
75* Are you timely or always late: early
76* Do you have a job: no
77* Do you like being around people: cool people
78* Best feeling in the world: when you are around friends
79* Are you for world peace: yep
80* Are you a health freak: not just watch what i eat
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: dont know
82* Do you want someone you don't have? who dosent
83* Are you lonely right now: no
84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: kinda
85* Do you want to get married: depends
86* Do you want kids? who knows
*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*
87* Cried: no
88* Bought Something: Jimmy johns
89* Gotten Sick: no
90* Sang:
91* Said I Love You: no
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: no
93* Met Someone: all the time in my classes
94* Moved On: NO
95* Talked To Someone: yes
96* Had A Serious Talk: no
97* Missed Someone: my friends
98* Hugged Someone: no
99* Yelled at Someone: no
100* had sex in the last 48 hours? no
2* Last word you said: Shit
3* Last song you sang: John Walsh-Rocky mountain way
4* Last person you hugged: some girl at the bar
5* Last thing you laughed at: thad lamb (roomate)
6* Last time you said "I dont remember": today sometime
7* Last time you cried: im a man i dont cry
*PRESENT*
9* What color socks are you wearing: White
10* What's under your bed: a naked lady
11* What time did you wake up today: 7:47
12* Current taste in your mouth: water
13* Current hair: brown
15* Current annoyance: nothing
16* Current longing: a girl i like in c dale
17* Current desktop background: the girl from a girl next door you know the hot one
18* Current worry: school
19* Current hate: nothing
20* Current favorite article of clothing: cards stuff
21* Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: a set of eyes are good but a nice set of tits are great!!!!!
22* Last CD that you listened to: Dave live in central park
23* Favorite place to be: Anywhere when im around my friends
24* Least favorite place to be: classroom
25* Time you wake up in the morning: did i drink that night
26* If you could play an instrument: bass
27* Favorite color(s): gree and blue
28* Do you believe in Heaven: yes
29* How tall are you: 6'1"
30* Current favorite word/saying: Damn mother fuck shit
31* Favorite book: Playboy
32* Favorite season: fall winter
33* One person from your past you wish you could talk to: hummmmm i talk to everbody i want to
*FUTURE*
35* Where do you want to go for college? SIUC
36* What is your career going to be like: golf course superintendent
37* How many kids do you want: two boys
*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: no never
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: dog
41* Been to Yew Nork: no
42* Been to Florida: yes with my old man
43* Been to California: no
44* Been to Hawaii: no
45* Been to Mexico: Yes with my mom and sister
46* Been to China: NO dont want to
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: all the time
52* Do you have a crush on someone: kinda but i think i blew it i called her when i was drunk
53* What book are you reading now? text books
54* Worst feeling in the world: to be told you have cancer
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? look at my morning wood
56* How many rings before you answer: i just pick it up
57* Future daughter's name: i will let my wife do that
58* Future son's name: Buck
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
60* If you could have any job you wanted: to be a movie star
61* Wish you were here:
62* College plans: get done by the age 30
63* Piercings: dick
64* Do you do drugs: all the time
65* Do you drink: when am i not drinking
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: what my mom got
68* What are you most scared of: nothing
69* What clothes do you sleep in: nothing
70* Who is the last person that called you: mother
71* Where do you want to get married: i will let my wife do that
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: be big and buff
73* Who do you really hate: dumb people
74* Been In Love: if i knew what it was i could tell you
75* Are you timely or always late: early
76* Do you have a job: no
77* Do you like being around people: cool people
78* Best feeling in the world: when you are around friends
79* Are you for world peace: yep
80* Are you a health freak: not just watch what i eat
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: dont know
82* Do you want someone you don't have? who dosent
83* Are you lonely right now: no
84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: kinda
85* Do you want to get married: depends
86* Do you want kids? who knows
*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*
87* Cried: no
88* Bought Something: Jimmy johns
89* Gotten Sick: no
90* Sang:
91* Said I Love You: no
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: no
93* Met Someone: all the time in my classes
94* Moved On: NO
95* Talked To Someone: yes
96* Had A Serious Talk: no
97* Missed Someone: my friends
98* Hugged Someone: no
99* Yelled at Someone: no
100* had sex in the last 48 hours? no
9.06.2005
I like big butts and I cannot lie
I am going to WIU friday and saturday maybe I should just pack more and go straight to EIU. I'll talk to Cory since he replied and let you know.
let me see
laura let me see what is going on that weekend like if i have school or something but i will come up that weekend
Family Weekend
Who wants to pretend to be my family?? Hey Diane, you ARE my family. Since you are coming home Oct. 19 maybe you should think about coming to EIU family weekend (hehe). My parents aren't coming and I'll be partying. It's Oct 23-25.
That is all.
That is all.
If thats the way it is then thats the way it is
I bought my plane ticket home. I'll be back in Alton Oct 19.
9.05.2005
Labor Day Schmabor Day
This weekend I went home. I relaxitated Friday night until I played a little sand volleyball with Dan and hung out with his APO friends in Edwardsville. So much for not driving much and saving gas.
Saturday I went to church with the parents, sat at DQ, came home, rented Pretty in Pink, went across the river for gas to drive home, and that's about it.
Sunday we (mom, dad, me) attempted to hit up the St. Louis Zoo, except it was hot so we gave up after not too long and went to the Landing. We had a beer at Morgan Street then at Trainwreck. It was fun.
Then I took an hour nap, watched Forrest Gump and came back to EIU. All in all I guess it was a good weekend. But I'm back to Verging it out, and kicking it on 12th Street.
I feel bad sometimes when Matt calls and I have other things going on. I really would like to just stop it all just to talk to him for a half hour, but that can't always be done. He's coming down Thursday- great example- he'll get here around 11, I have class from 12:30- 3:15, I MIGHT get to hang out with him for a little bit then sorority stuff probably starts around 5:30 (rush) and lasts till 9:30 or so. Then we can chill out and watch a movie before he leaves Friday to go home for a bachelor party. It's okay though, I'm happy as long as I can see him for that period of time. While I'm at class and ASA, he will be having lunch with the president of the university, Lou Hencken (Matt is a very important person. People know him. He has many leather bound books and his apartment smells of rich mahogany)... and then he'll be hanging out with Stephen Haas- who is back in Charelston this week!! YAY THE STEPHEN!
K me and Erin Miller have homework to be doing. Look Rachelowe, another person is called by their first and last name. But its because the other Aaron is a boy, and it's still 2 words. Rachelowe.
Saturday I went to church with the parents, sat at DQ, came home, rented Pretty in Pink, went across the river for gas to drive home, and that's about it.
Sunday we (mom, dad, me) attempted to hit up the St. Louis Zoo, except it was hot so we gave up after not too long and went to the Landing. We had a beer at Morgan Street then at Trainwreck. It was fun.
Then I took an hour nap, watched Forrest Gump and came back to EIU. All in all I guess it was a good weekend. But I'm back to Verging it out, and kicking it on 12th Street.
I feel bad sometimes when Matt calls and I have other things going on. I really would like to just stop it all just to talk to him for a half hour, but that can't always be done. He's coming down Thursday- great example- he'll get here around 11, I have class from 12:30- 3:15, I MIGHT get to hang out with him for a little bit then sorority stuff probably starts around 5:30 (rush) and lasts till 9:30 or so. Then we can chill out and watch a movie before he leaves Friday to go home for a bachelor party. It's okay though, I'm happy as long as I can see him for that period of time. While I'm at class and ASA, he will be having lunch with the president of the university, Lou Hencken (Matt is a very important person. People know him. He has many leather bound books and his apartment smells of rich mahogany)... and then he'll be hanging out with Stephen Haas- who is back in Charelston this week!! YAY THE STEPHEN!
K me and Erin Miller have homework to be doing. Look Rachelowe, another person is called by their first and last name. But its because the other Aaron is a boy, and it's still 2 words. Rachelowe.
5:00PM
Well Mr. Murphy got sprayed by a skunk again. Angie had to give him and Copper baths at 5:30 in the morning the other day. Mike and I went boating/jetsking on the river yesterday. It was hella fun just kind of sucky b/c it was raining for a little bit. I think thats it.