So, Ryan and I broke up last night.
It was something that needed to be done, because it just wasn't working out. But it sucks, it doesn't feel like a stress has been lifted like I thought it would. I mean, I don't have to worry and try hard just to make things even OK between us, but now I feel as though all of my efforts have been in vain for the past 5-6 months or so. And in that time, as many of you know, I made myself crazy trying to make something work that, lets face it, just was not going to happen. I feel stupid, and embarrassed, and I have let myself down about a lot of things.....
I'm kinda mad, kinda sad, kinda relieved, but overall not feeling too well today, so we'll have to see about raquetball tonight Emily, I'll let u know. (possibly more later, maybe not)
3.04.2004
I got mail...Yay!!!
I'm so exicited!! For the first time I know that I kicked @$$ on my midterm!!! That means lots of good partying tonight!!
Here are some funny links...
Do this next time you get drunk... http://powdermonster.com/amusing/txt/amusing.php?show=172
Ever want to know what those sex term guys use exactly mean (donkey punch or the seventy two)...
http://powdermonster.com/amusing/txt/obscene.php
Here are some funny links...
Do this next time you get drunk... http://powdermonster.com/amusing/txt/amusing.php?show=172
Ever want to know what those sex term guys use exactly mean (donkey punch or the seventy two)...
http://powdermonster.com/amusing/txt/obscene.php
3.03.2004
For Em
You totally shouldn't feel bad. You didn't do anything wrong. Try avoid talking to Steve. Believe me if he is like that now there is no way you guys can be friends (at least right now).
If you end up going back down, let me know and I will go with you.
If you end up going back down, let me know and I will go with you.
3.02.2004
Gettin' lucky in Kentucky
I don't want to go on Friday. I want to go sometime next week. Anytime the 8th through the 12.
I just got done watching "School of Rock" and the guitarist guy (Zack) looks like Laura's bf but younger. Well at least to me but i've only seen him once so let me know what you guys think.
I just got done watching "School of Rock" and the guitarist guy (Zack) looks like Laura's bf but younger. Well at least to me but i've only seen him once so let me know what you guys think.
It's like that one episode of Friends...
Emily told me that if I saw enough of that TV show that I would be saying things like that. I have caught myself three times in the past two days. it is almost embarrassing.
Emily, I do NOT think you are a bad person. You are not with Steve anymore, and you can have your fun. I wouldn't go around sleeping with- or doing anything serious with people I didn't know, but maybe that's just me. You do what you want and I won't talk no shit. Also, there's nothing wrong with a little harmless fun when you're single anyways.
P.S. As much as me and Steve get along as friends, YOU DON'T WANT HIM LIKE THAT ANYMORE (there's your reminder the next time you are feeling that you may want to get back together.
SOMEONE try to get a pic on here.... Em you were close but there was something wrong with the html. I know you can do it- look at http://imgruv2.blogspot.com.
More later....
Emily, I do NOT think you are a bad person. You are not with Steve anymore, and you can have your fun. I wouldn't go around sleeping with- or doing anything serious with people I didn't know, but maybe that's just me. You do what you want and I won't talk no shit. Also, there's nothing wrong with a little harmless fun when you're single anyways.
P.S. As much as me and Steve get along as friends, YOU DON'T WANT HIM LIKE THAT ANYMORE (there's your reminder the next time you are feeling that you may want to get back together.
SOMEONE try to get a pic on here.... Em you were close but there was something wrong with the html. I know you can do it- look at http://imgruv2.blogspot.com.
More later....
Mrs. Brave Visit
I have class until 4:00 on Friday so I really can't go. Unless I went between 10 and 2:30 and came back, which I guess it a possibility.... lemme think about it. I kinda always feel like I am not missed there.
Sorrayyy.............
Yes, I understand that I haven't been able to write much in the last couple of days.....Well its been longer than that, but give me some credit, I've been a lil busy here....After all of Steve's attempts to make me feel like I am a terrible person, and a terrible girlfriend, he still has the nerve to try to be my "buddy". I am not making this up to make myself look "better" or anything,,,that would just be sad. But he calls me like 6 or more times a day, trying to make all kinds of plans with me. After this past weekend, I felt kinda bad for him so I went out with him last night and saw a movie. I don't want him back,,,and all you guys have to keep reminding me!!!!!! Cuz I will just end up in the same spot I am in now.
I felt bad for him cuz I went down to Drury University friday night till saturday afternoon... I stayed with my brother and had a kick ass time at the fraternity house.... To my surprize, all the guys were hella nice to me! I thought they were gonna be total dicks and try to get in my pants, but they really weren't. This one hella hot guy was chillin with me for several hours,,playin on my team of bay route, and tellin me all the tricks of the game,,,,, he was super sweet,, and when all the other brothers started to show up and it started to turn into a big party his girlfriend showed up. He introduced us and she was hella cool too. Nice to know that there are still nice guys out there..... ok back to the point about how I felt bad for steve.... Yes, I drank a TON while I was done there,,,and some parts of the night are pretty blury... Steve called me the next day all pissed off at me...I had no idea what he was talkin about,,, He said that I called him and told him to come and get me,,,or some shit....then when he called back twice he got some guy that kept sayin shit like "leave us alone we are busy" "she doesn't want to talk to you she's busy havin a good time" Crap like that.... So I felt bad,,,but at the same time I think he might be making some of it up.... Besides,, my phone was in one of the frat bedrooms for most of the night,,, who knows what guys and girls where doin in there,,,so maybe some guy thought that it was another chicks cell phone and answered it.... Cuz at NO time did I want to leave that kick ass party... I also felt bad cuz I kinda hooked up with a frat guy down there,,,not like that,,,we just made out... no harm done,,,, what do you guys think???? was that bad of me to have a lil single fun in my life???? Does that make me a terrible person making out with some guy I don't even know,,,and not caring that there isn't a relationship there????? LET ME KNOW PLEASE.. I will tell more details when I get time,,,but I must go to class now.....by the way I AM GOING BACK DOWN THERE EITHER FRIDAY OR SATURDAY,,,THEY ARE HAVING A HUGE MARDI GRAS PARTY SATURDAY NIGHT IF ANYONE WANTS TO GO WITH ME......OVER 1,000 PEOPLE....LET ME KNOW
I felt bad for him cuz I went down to Drury University friday night till saturday afternoon... I stayed with my brother and had a kick ass time at the fraternity house.... To my surprize, all the guys were hella nice to me! I thought they were gonna be total dicks and try to get in my pants, but they really weren't. This one hella hot guy was chillin with me for several hours,,playin on my team of bay route, and tellin me all the tricks of the game,,,,, he was super sweet,, and when all the other brothers started to show up and it started to turn into a big party his girlfriend showed up. He introduced us and she was hella cool too. Nice to know that there are still nice guys out there..... ok back to the point about how I felt bad for steve.... Yes, I drank a TON while I was done there,,,and some parts of the night are pretty blury... Steve called me the next day all pissed off at me...I had no idea what he was talkin about,,, He said that I called him and told him to come and get me,,,or some shit....then when he called back twice he got some guy that kept sayin shit like "leave us alone we are busy" "she doesn't want to talk to you she's busy havin a good time" Crap like that.... So I felt bad,,,but at the same time I think he might be making some of it up.... Besides,, my phone was in one of the frat bedrooms for most of the night,,, who knows what guys and girls where doin in there,,,so maybe some guy thought that it was another chicks cell phone and answered it.... Cuz at NO time did I want to leave that kick ass party... I also felt bad cuz I kinda hooked up with a frat guy down there,,,not like that,,,we just made out... no harm done,,,, what do you guys think???? was that bad of me to have a lil single fun in my life???? Does that make me a terrible person making out with some guy I don't even know,,,and not caring that there isn't a relationship there????? LET ME KNOW PLEASE.. I will tell more details when I get time,,,but I must go to class now.....by the way I AM GOING BACK DOWN THERE EITHER FRIDAY OR SATURDAY,,,THEY ARE HAVING A HUGE MARDI GRAS PARTY SATURDAY NIGHT IF ANYONE WANTS TO GO WITH ME......OVER 1,000 PEOPLE....LET ME KNOW
AHS visit
I come home friday and I want to go see Mrs. Brave. Lets decide on a day and go. Get back to me.
3.01.2004
Fat, Ugly Ohio State Hater
So.. the good news is, its a lot warmer outside today than it usually is in March, and I hope that we see a lot more of this weather.
But I got on the bus today to go to class and this freaking stupid guy starts (not shouting, but) saying loudly and repeating "OHIO STATE SUCKS, OHIO STATE SUCKS." And I ignored it. Then some more people got on the bus and so I turned around to walk back and give them space.... when the guy starts at it again. This time I make eye contact with the douche.
He's a fat, ugly, blonde guy who obviously thinks he is the shit. Trying to make all his little buddies giggle. I can hear him all the way to Peck. He's loud, obnoxious, and extremely annoying. But I again, ignore and say nothing.
Firstly, I am sorry if my t-shirt offends him in any way. I can wear whatever the hell I want. I donno if OSU plays some team that he likes and wins on a regular basis, or if OSU's teams suck or what. Actually I don't care. Megan went there last year, I had fun visiting, I bought a t-shirt and IM GONNA WEAR IT.
Its also entirely possible that this loser doesn't know how else to get the attention of girls. If this is his way of flirting, then he is an even bigger douche than I previously thought. And I know its entirely possible, because I know guys who use mocking and making fun of things girls like in order to start a conversation.
In fact, I think that's what my boyfriend does a lot (sorry if you read this Ryan). I mean, I KNOW he doesn't like a lot of the same things I do, but I also know that if he wouldn't say that stuff to be mean to me.... he thinks its fun, that's all. Because I always try to defend myself and we get a rise out of little stupid arguments apparently.
Anyways, it may seem like I am making a big deal out of nothing, but I just wanted to point out that today is one of those days when u realize God created people, animals and the world.... but he didn't forget at least 1 big douche.
But I got on the bus today to go to class and this freaking stupid guy starts (not shouting, but) saying loudly and repeating "OHIO STATE SUCKS, OHIO STATE SUCKS." And I ignored it. Then some more people got on the bus and so I turned around to walk back and give them space.... when the guy starts at it again. This time I make eye contact with the douche.
He's a fat, ugly, blonde guy who obviously thinks he is the shit. Trying to make all his little buddies giggle. I can hear him all the way to Peck. He's loud, obnoxious, and extremely annoying. But I again, ignore and say nothing.
Firstly, I am sorry if my t-shirt offends him in any way. I can wear whatever the hell I want. I donno if OSU plays some team that he likes and wins on a regular basis, or if OSU's teams suck or what. Actually I don't care. Megan went there last year, I had fun visiting, I bought a t-shirt and IM GONNA WEAR IT.
Its also entirely possible that this loser doesn't know how else to get the attention of girls. If this is his way of flirting, then he is an even bigger douche than I previously thought. And I know its entirely possible, because I know guys who use mocking and making fun of things girls like in order to start a conversation.
In fact, I think that's what my boyfriend does a lot (sorry if you read this Ryan). I mean, I KNOW he doesn't like a lot of the same things I do, but I also know that if he wouldn't say that stuff to be mean to me.... he thinks its fun, that's all. Because I always try to defend myself and we get a rise out of little stupid arguments apparently.
Anyways, it may seem like I am making a big deal out of nothing, but I just wanted to point out that today is one of those days when u realize God created people, animals and the world.... but he didn't forget at least 1 big douche.