6.25.2005

Survey

FIRSTS!!
First best friend: Jami Akers...and shes still one of them!
First car: '92 Limited Edition Z-33 Cavaliar
First kiss: Jami's cousin Johnny in like 1st grade
First screen name: I can't remember
First self purchased album: Bone thugs n harmony East 99
First funeral: Grandma
First pets: my kitty gizmo
First piercing/tattoo: belly button
First credit card: mc before i went to wiu for books
First enemy: Kim Flannagan...she wanted to beat my ass and I have no idea why
First big trip: DisneyWorld
First music you remember hearing in your house: Guns n Roses

LASTS!!
Last cigarette: two weeks ago
Last car ride: last night
Last kiss: this morning
Last movie seen: Hitch, last night
Last food consumed: Subway
Last crush: right before Mike there was Joel
Last phone call: Chadillac
Last time showered: 30 mins ago
Last shoes worn: flip flops
Last cd played: Sparta
Last item bought: my hair cut/eyebrows
Last annoyance: my sister
Last time wanting to die: what kind of question is that?
Last shirt worn: my AHS senior shirt
Last website visited: myspace.com

6.23.2005

Awkwardness

So. Me and Aaron are pretty much here alone. Once a week or so we go eat dinner together. Never at a fast food place, always something a little nicer, yet still not fancy.

EVERY damn time, the restaurant people treat us as if we were together. I didn't mind at first, but it's becoming just wierd. It almost makes me paranoid. Can they tell I used to have a crush on him? I realize I still get a little giggly aroung him and laugh at everything he says. I'm just like that.

And I know it's "customary" to hand the check to the guy but it's a pain in the ass having to pay him. I feel bad even, that they think he is going to pay for stuff.

And we went to a co-worker's BBQ last weekend and he, Todd, was introducing everyone from the paper to his friends. And one of the interns brought her husband. And there was hesitation is his voice when he introduced up... "I donno if Aaron and Laura are the same way..." And to save myself from feeling bad if Aaron were to feel adverse to this idea, I immediately called out" no, we're not" then I let out an uneasy giggle. I think I offended him a little. "Oh thanks!" he said and he gave me a little grin.

And then one night came the convo about me having made out with all the sports guys... except him. And we were a little drunky that night. And he seemed offended that I hadn't and he made a comment on how he "didn't get to." Or something. But he never tried. Not to say if he had we would have but look my track recond's not good. haha...

Yo ho and really bad eggs

Sorry I watched Pirates of the Carribean the other night.

Anyways good story Diane, gross, but interesting nonetheless. Talk about blue balls haha. Oh- and your xanga is DiDeeStar. You must have signed up for it to sign my guestbook, which you did. If you ever wanted it you just hit up xanga.com with dideestar and a password.

This dude has been trying to talk to me on AIM. He said he saw me on STLPunk and I looked "kewl" which is a sign right there it's a bad deal. Why are all the people who think I look cool major freaks? It's not like that in real life!!! WTF!? Anyways I have declined to talk to him. I ignore and hope he goes away, which I realize is kinda bitchy but this guy doesn't know me so what the hey.

I've been talking to some friends from school I haven't seen in awhile which is kind of interesting. I need to call Stephen, he's one person I wish you guys would have met, although I don't know if you would have liked him as much as I did. The man was like my second half. The problem is lately I've had this wierd aversion to the phone. Matt called me the other day- and I loved Matt to death!- and I didn't even answer the phone. I was in the middle of a movie, for starters, but still! I don't know what's wrong with me! I waited till he IMed me then I responded later. Maybe because I don't know how much Matt and I would have to talk about. But Stephen is totally different! Anyway I can't talk much til after nine because I had to upgrade my plan for my phone to work in RI and I have less minutes now. I did talk to April the other day and that was nice. I think I'm gonna have to break down and call Stephen tonight. Actually I don't know why I feel so bad because I've gotten only texts and IMs from him- which I have always replied to! I miss him. Sometimes I feel weird because I realize the way I talk about him makes me sound like I was in love with him, but I loved him totally not in a dating way. And it was great because he has a gf he was crazy about, so it was mutual. And she is sweet too.

I'm getting ready to go out to the Henry County Fair this afternoon once again. It's like an hour away, so I get to drive which I love, and for some reason I LOVE COUNTY FAIRS. It must be the Jerseyvillian in me. I'd rather go to the Jersey County Fair than the Alton Expo any day, regardless of its hickness. I'm gonna get me a fat candy apple covered in chocolate and sprinkles. I've been thinking about it ever since I was out there two days ago. I covered the pig costume contest last time, and I even got to take a picture that was published! I want to be able to take photos better. So during the school year I'm putting my digital to use to try and take some decent photos. News-type or feature photos, not pose and grin ones. Those I save for the throwaways at crazy parties. Also I am going to insist that I take a lot of Verge photos, but I need to get better or I'll stink up my publication.

Anyway today I'm previewing a wildlife enthusiasts show at the fair. It includes classes like taxidermy (mounted animals is what they call it but that's what it is), homemade wildlife (deer jerky and the such) and wildlife photography. It's new. And I get to see it before the entries are judged and before anyone else does. Yay me. And I get to take a photo.

Thomas I was surprised to not see an entry by you today! Oh wait didn't you say you have a training session? Let us know how that went hehe.

OMY GOSH Jen found a pic on Collegehumor.com that looks EXACTLY, not simlar, EXACTLY like Megan. I wonder.... I mean it's totally possible she did go to a huge school although I'm not sure that matters. Let me see if I can find the link. I sent it to Emily. Someone should show it to Megan and ask her, seriously. Dammit I can't find the link. Go to collegehumor.com and browse in the "random" section and it was posted by a girl. I have the link saved at home and I will get it. Let me know what you guys find out. Kbye.

6.22.2005

I have things to write about!

Such a entertaining story...
The other night at Mike's soccer game he got kneed in the groin. (I never knew soccer players didn't wear cups.) Anyway...it swelled up huge and had to leave the soccer game and go to the ER. They did an ultrasound of his balls!!! Haha. Anyway...they are still pretty big and his whole nutsack is black/purple! Isn't that gross?!? The Dr. said hes lucky his nutsack didn't rupture. Thats how bad it is.

My crazy dream...
Ok, so, last night I had a dream that I was in some college and partying with Janna Herndon! Isn't that nuts! I never hung out with her and I don't even know when the last time I saw her was. Plus, shes not a partier. I thought that was kind of strange.

Laura-I have one of those? I don't even remember. Crazyness. I don't even know how to get to it now.

I'll write more later. Bye for now.

Diane's XANGA

Are you aware that you have one? It's quite boring with no posts hehe. Very bored. You'd imagine I'd have to be to find that.
Love you all buhbye!

continued from last...

Series 1-8

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[ series 1 ]
NameLaura
BirthdayNov. 17, 1983
BirthplaceAlton
Current LocationRock Island
Eye Colorbrown/green
Hair Colorbrown
Righty or Leftyrighty, always learning to be ambi
Zodiac SignScorpio
Fontwhatever I feel at the moment
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Musicpretty much everything
CartoonAqua Teen Hungerforce
Colorcerulean blue
CarChrysler 300c
Slushy Flavorwhatever Thomas made me with 9 flavors
MagazineCosmopolitan
TV ShowCSI
Song at the MomentHeart- Magic Man
LanguageEnglish, the only one I speak
Spice Girlnone please
Food & Beveragesmores and cherry pepsi
Subject in SchoolJournalism
Weekend Activitydepends on my mood
Frozen Yogurtnone please
Roller CoasterTHE BOSS
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[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phraseWhateva
First thing you thought when you woke upOOOh I don't want to get up!
Last image/thought you go to sleep withmy clock
First feature you notice of opposite sexeyes
Best name for a ButlerRemy (just read DaVinci Code)
Wussiest Sportbadminton
Your best featuremy compassion
Your greatest fearmy parents dying/tornadoes
Your greatest accomplishmentmaking Poulter cry
Your most missed memorythe Pit at AHS
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[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Cokeboth, depends on my feeling at the time
McDonald's or Burger KingMc D's bitch
Single or Group Datessingle
Adidas or NikeAdidas
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingersnugs
Dogs or Catssmall dogs or cats
Rugrats or DougRugrats
Single or TakenI prefer 'em single, no cheaters please
Monica or BrandyMonica
Tupac or Jay-ZTupac
Shania Twain or LeAnn RhymesShania
Lipton Ice Tea or NesteaLipton
One pillow or Twotwo
Chocolate or Vanillachocolate- which I crave badly right now
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoahot chocolate, same thing!!
Cappucino or Coffeecappucino but neither is good also
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[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everydayat the very least yes
Have a crushnot particularly
Think you've been in loveI've loved, not been in love
Want to go to collegeI go to college stupid
Like high schoolI did, yes.
Want to get marrieddefinitely someday
Type correctlynot always, shoot me
Believe in yourselfI try to yes
Have any tattoos? Wherenone
Have any piercings? Whereears
Get motion sicknessnot normally
Think you're a health freaklately moreso, with the exercising
Get along with your parentsmostly, but we argue a lot
Like thunderstormssometimes. I like rain anyway.
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[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be marriedlate 20s
Number and names of children4ish. Haley, Madison, Dorian, Jackson
Where will you be at age 20I was at Eastern Illinois University
Dream weddingwe'll see
How do you want to diein my sleep when I'm ancient
Dream jobmagazine columnist
Country you'd like to visitEngland
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[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye colordoesn't matter
Best hair colordark preferred
Short or long hairshaggy
Best heighttall to medium
Best weightaverage
Best clotheswhatever they want
Best first date locationwherever we want
Best first kiss locationwhen it feels right
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[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animalspongebob is on my bed at home...
Rings before you answer the phoneIt's a song, I don't know
What's on your mousepada ladybug that says ASA
How many houses you've lived in1 house, 3 dorms, 1 apt. building
How many schools you've gone to6. St. A's, North, AHS, LCCC, SIUE, EIU
Bedroom carpet colortannish
Shave your head for $5,000?no way
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No peoplewater purifier, suntan lotion, bed
Best time of your life so farcollege

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Daily Update

Hey kids!
I'm back with "what's new with me." I'm working on two stories presently, but I am waiting to hear back from some sources. I decided to use my time wisely and update the blog.
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Thomas, that really sucks about your game. I wish I could have played this year. Maybe next year! Who knows where I'll be (not WHERE, because I really can't afford to live away whilst paying back about $20,000 in loans, but more or less what I'll be doing and where in the area.)
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I get home at the end of July, which is growing ever closer and I am getting excited. After this week- which is flying by, I have 5 weeks left. And this is getting repetitive but after the weekend of July 2 I have stuff to do so next week should fly by too. And then it's officially half over. I can't wait until I actually get a vacation! I don't mind being away, and I don't mind getting clips and doing what it is I like to do- but I got thrown into that at school right away when I wasn't used to it, and I was ready for a break. I don't mind it up here, but everytime I think about what I COULD be doing- laying out at my aunt's pool and doing useless things with my dad for fun. I could have gone to to Ozarks... my parents wanted to go to New York for vacation this year. We weren't going to the city, I'd save that for my friends... but we were going to see Niagara falls and do goofy tourist stuff. The two weeks that I have for summer I have so much stuff I want to do it isn't even funny. And the sad part is, part of the time I'd like to stay in and relax, but I guess that's really what I do everynight now after my day is through.
I want to:
*go to the zoo
*hit up the art museum
*go to Beaver Dam and paddle boat
*swim at Becky's
*hike/picnic at Pere Marquette which we stopped doing
*go to a Cardinals game
*shop a little bit
*eat out at Blueberry Hill in the loop, maybe stop into Fitz for dessert...
There are several other things on my list. I am just daydreaming right now.
I've never even been to the Belle! But I guess that's not saying much anyway from what I've heard.
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I'm going to find a strange survey and fill it out. Everytime I think enough time has passed that my answers would be different, but... well we'll just see if it's true.

To be continued....

6.21.2005

ARGH people!

Jen- Nice to see you've come back to us. That concert is still 3 hours away. So I probably won't be able to go.

Thomas- I won't be home for Emily's party because my best friend from school's grad/b-day party is July 2nd and it is way closer to here. Plus I already promised when we left school. So I'll be home either July 30 until I leave again for Chucktown, or I might come home one more weekend, that it yet to be known. If so it would be July 8 or July 15.

I'm trying to write a damn story on straight-edgers and they're all being bitches to me. They don't want "the media to portray them as bad" or "make an already underground culture worse." I'll tell you what, if they don't cooperate I will write the story with what I have from people who WILL help. And IT WILL make them look bad because I will not hesitate to include that more than just a few responded with rude e-mails and refused comment. That looks like they've got something to hide! I just don't get it. How can a group of people who don't drink/smoke/have sex before marriage be so bad that people hate them? Unless they do something that otherwise makes them look bad AKA whatever they're trying to hide. They act like they're so much better (not all of them trust me, just about half of the ones I've talked to if not more). From what I know about the lifestyle itself, there shouldn't be anything to hide, and I'd want more people to know what we do. And Jon, I donno if you read this, but no offense to your brother. Anyway. They'll be sorry! Because I won't be trying to make them look bad, they will be doing it themselves. I am infuriated and confused, and quite aghast that they freaking YELLED at me in their e-mails! "YOU MAINSTREAMERS CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND!!!" Fuck that.

P.S. I'm covering a pig costume contest today at Henry County Fair haha.

6.20.2005

Mondays bite ass!

I really do hate mondays. They suck! Everyone is so rude and demanding at the same time. Bastards. But that is what I get for helping the public, blah! Anywho, my office is somewhat back to normal, we all got new desks and mini cubes, I feel like I'm truly in office space now! But I like the mini cubes cuz now I can hang lots of pix,,,yay!

Chuck was 27. no, 28 damn uhhhhh 27 hehe. I still can't help but think of him every waking minute.... I'm a freak, I know.

Well I better get on my yard is almost 6:30 now. I might write more l8er tonight. Bye

How do they figure?













What You Really Think Of Your Friends



April is your soulmate.
You truly love Megan J.
You consider Rachelowe your true friend.
You know that Thomas is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Ashley for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Emily is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Cory is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that Renick is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Renick changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Diane is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Diane has a hidden internet romance.





First of all....
This stuff is mainly true with a few exceptions. Emily is NOT the dramatic one. And Diane is not very shy. Other than that! (wow the Renick one, right on target)

Sorry Thomas

I couldn't help myself

You Think Michael Jackson Is Innocent

Q: Have you seen the new Michael Jackson candy bar?
A: It's white chocolate with no nuts.... (but kids like it)

Diane's survey by Laura

Name: Laura
Hometown: Godfrey
Birthplace: Alton
Height: 5'6
First time you ever drank?: Ha there's a pic of me with a beer when I was under one year of age. I don't think I DRANK then though... hehe
Type of Drunk you are: beer- goofy, outgoing, hyper... hard alcohol- quiet, reserved, in another world tired
Ever been in an actual fight?: no
Favorite drink/shot?: drink- Malibu and Coke, shot- Lemondrop
Favorite beer (if applicable)?: Morgan Street's wheat ale
Favorite liquor?: none preferably but rum if I must choose
More of a bar or club person? depends on who I'm with and how I feel at that particular moment. P.S. We all need to go to Wild Country this August for dancing and cheap booze. I forget which night they have a special though.
Alcohol you absolutely despise?: Tequila. I've only ever had half a shot- but I threw it all up later. Really I blame the party weenies and the spinning room.
Ever bought a stranger a drink?: um. no.
Been thrown out of a bar/club?: Sure haven't
Ever make out with someone in front of a cheering crowd?: no
Most amount of money spent in one bar/club?: only like $15. Then I move on.
Ever buy a round for random people?: no, not random
Best song/band to hear while drinking?: That crap Stix plays when I'm in the dancing mood.
Ever danced on the bar/stage?: not on bar, on stage at Roc's during Crush dance. Oh yeah- I was sober that night. The party was too slow for my liking, I livened it up.
Best town/area to drink in?: with buddies :) But Rock Island isn't so bad either.
Do you forget a lot of what happens during a night of hard drinking?: Nope, I can only remember one time that I forgot I called some people, that's all.
Been drunk around your parents?: I still don't like to be, but I'll drink yes.

Fear and Loathing....

An exerpt from my xanga

" Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas is beginning to make me loathe it. And I'm only on the 3rd chapter. Everyone seems to love it, so I borrowed it from my brother and am currently trying to figure out what's so goddam exciting about it. I admit, the imagery is priceless, but it also sounds like a bunch of crazy rambling that's taking me no where. Which I know is the point, because they're on drugs. But they seem extremely immature and retarded to me. This book, and the movie Requiem For a Dream, are two sources that will stop me from ever feeling the need to inhale ether, to drop acid or to pump myself with uppers all afternoon. "

I think Emily can back me up on the Requiem for a Dream. I guarantee you could drop the percentage of kids who use drugs if you used that movie in health classes by 5th grade. Maybe again in 8th grade, for those who didn't understand it then. But we gotta catch them before they have already tried it.

Anyway I'm at work. I'm about to start an article on straight edge kids. Inspired by various articles and Jon Lasinski's obsession with hardcore. Normally within the hard core music culture, straight edgers do not smoke, drink or fornicate before marriage. Kinda the opposite of Fear and Loathing. Better get on that.

P.S. I brought Soup at Hand for lunch today. I tried the tomato soup crap and HATED IT! This is chicken and stars. Can you feel the anticipation building??

6.19.2005

Sunday prime time

Today is Sunday, I'm just lying around. I finished the DaVinci Code. I'm gonna send it home with my parents to give to your mom Diane. I feel horrible I've had it do long. I also have that Daddy's Girl book I should be starting. Also sad. I will understand if your mom wants it back ASAP.

Emily, woman- I know you like older men but to a certain extent you should probably realize that those guys are closer to the age where they will want to settle down and get married and stuff. Kick it with some younger party animals first if that's what you want. And don't go back to Chuck just because he's in love with you. If you're not sure, then it is obviously bothering you, but I think your first instinct of becoming single in that case was probably for the best, because giving up on your chances for law school if you think long distance sucks (and you would know) is definitely not worth it it sounds like.

All that stuff sounds like it would be really good on your resume. I'm proud of ya girl! Way to go.
I met this guy that the Argus, Brian, and he is simply, amazing. Amazing-ly strange that is. On first sight, he's pretty hot and hilariously funny. But he has a gf, so don't get me wrong, that's not why he's amazing. He's 24. In high school he wrote a story on the top 10 bars for minors, which was an investigative report on the bars that are easiest to get into, with or without a fake. He uncovered some shit and almost caused several lawsuits. And that story is the reason the Argus hired him. Before he even graduated college he knew he already had a job at the Argus.
He has all these other ideas, like putting himself out on the streets and living like a bum for a week, to give people an insider's look on hobo life. Another one was checking into a bad neighborhood apartment complex for a month, having the paper pay only rent, and report on what living conditions and lifestyle is like for these people. Participatory journalism. The paper won't exactly let him do all that, so he's thinking about freelancing some of his stuff to magazines. And he's 24. He'a crazy to boot, he used to do extremem skating (board and blade) and has probably almost killed himself 30 times or so. He's a rush to hang out with, and I couldn't believe until the other night that journalism could get my adrenaline going so much. Maybe it's more him and his fast paced stories and shit, but the guy seems to have it all together where he needs it. He went to school to be a cop or something then he changed his major and so now he covers all the hard crime stuff. Interesting huh? He also understands how it is to be young, and is a big help when we interns want to do something a little more than the normal assignments we get on a whim.

Ok my rant is finished. Nice Rachelowe.

Strange Weekend

Well, I actually did it, I broke up with Chuck on Friday, but last night he thought we were back together again. I told him I would just date him, but that isn't good enough, which is understandable. I just don't know what I do to guys..... He totally wanted to marry me and have kids. Last night he told me that he doesn't even look at other girls, which i told him that everyone does 'look' but he swore up and down that he doesn't. I'm not ready for a relationship like that, with the whole marriage/kids thing. I'm pry gonna be moving in two years anyways, well not moving, but going away to school. I'm really interested in Chicago or New York, which are both too far away, I think, to try to keep a long distance relationship.

I feel really bad for chuck, but what was I suppose to do, I'm not that 'in love' with him, or at least I don't think I am. We'll see what happens in the next couple of days without him in my life.

He told me that two years is a long time away and things could change, I think he was saying this in hopes that I would change my mind and not go anywhere for school. But I'm not changing my mind though, DEA has been what I have wanted to do since after my first semester at SIUE. If law school is one of my only chances then I'm gonna take it, even if it means going to school a thousand miles away.

Oh yea~ Good update on getting in to law school. I talked to my criminal justice club advisor and he said he would sign my papers to send in to be admitted to the Criminal Justice Club Honor Society, Alpha Phi Sigma to be exact. Then I am joining the psychology club and I have the grades to be admitted to their Honor Society which is Psi Chi. So I hope that looks really good on my applications.

Well I'm gonna go tanning and get ready cuz I am going shopping with steve. I'm not going to buy anything, I'm not going to buy anything... must remain strong.... I am poor, I'm not going to buy anything.......................