9.16.2005

sounds good

well people im home of the weekend of the 16 if you want to do anything just let me know

Diane....That would be so sweet if you went to SIUC but your mom is correct we would fail.....But damn would it be fun

Cum stains

Hmmm...I was not aware. Thank you for sharing your knowledge. I'll have to look into it.

When life hands you lemons put them in your bra to make your boobs look bigger

My mommy got in an accident the other day with my neon. She was stopped at the light on West Delmar and Pierce. Some guy rear ended her causing her to hit the car in front of her. She took Roxie into Freer and the neon is only worth 1600 and the damage is 2200. They haven't comfirmed it yet but she is basically totalled. Depending on how much the insurance company will sell it back for and how much it will take for my daddy to fix it we might get it back if its under whatever they give us for it but if not then Roxie will no longer be with us. So now I guess I'm looking for a car.

Should I still come home? So when I say I'm coming home good stuff starts happening for me in SA and bad starts in STL.
Good in SA
-I was offered to be a key holder at Aero which is like an assistant manager but with a little less responsibilities, but turned it down b/c I don't want to work in retail, I didn't/won't be going to school for that, and I had already decided to move home. I have my chance to really shine at Aero b/c we got all new manager and they suck!!! I'm doing a ton of work I don't have to do to keep the store the way it was (which was one of the best!) They don't know how to handle our Aero b/c we are a testing store so our store is waaaaay bigger in comparison to the rest of the Aeros.
-Now DASA wants to work me at the Marriotts where I won't be on call anymore. I'll have a perminate position with them.
-Then I got another call for a massage job, but I didn't call them back since I'm moving and all.
Bad in STL
-No freaking car when I come home.

Which this isn't all that bad but I'm really into signs. Are these signs I should stay?!?!



Cory--
Since I want to go into physical therapy SWIC is one of the only schools around that offer the program and guess what the other closest school is...SIUC. I said something to my mom about going there and she was all like "yeah, ok, let me send you there with Cory so you both can fail out." I don't think she thinks its a good idea for me to go there. haha

9.15.2005

Yay for new Alphas!

Recruitment is over!!! And has been for a day, but I have been too busy until now, at five after midnight- to post anything on it. We didn't meet quota, but we were only three away, and we can still snap up to 16 more girls this semester. This is the best Alpha Sigma Alpha has done here in eight years apparently. Which is a sure fire sign we're on the turn-around. We got 33 beautiful and great ladies. And the very first girl I met is now my ASA lil' sis. Her name is Gena, but its pronounced Jenna. I hope I can be a lot better of a big sis than mine was. I don't even know if mine is still an ASA. I don't think she is actually.
It's going to be exciting getting to know them, before I have to graduate :(
Our shirts are kinda cute. They are the NFL symbol only they say ASA in Greek. And on the back it says "Nation's Finest Ladies" "We scored the top picks!"
YAY FOR ALPHA SIGMA ALPHA!

Good luck, Emily, recruiting future D Phi E's. You won't need it. They'll know who's worth hanging around on campus.

9.13.2005

Back on track...

Well, I don't know where to begin. I want to first say thank you everyone for support and what not,, and some really good feedback. No, Curtis' is not in the porn industry for one. Another thing, after thinking about it all weekend an partially this week I realize that I was the one at fault and it was my doing of why he acted the way he did in Carrollton and my fault that I broke up with him. No, I am not brain washed but I have been talking to him a lot, esp about why things went down the way they did.
(last week:)
Thursday we went and saw a movie and he had just gotten a new phone (basically the same as mine but a newer version) the night before. So like most guys he was playin with it all night trying to figure out how everything worked. So I was showing him how to send text messages back and forth, but we weren't recieving each others. So then the movie started and we didn't have time to figure out what was goin on with it. When we finally made it back to my house I was so exhausted I just went to bed. He, however, stayed up and tried to figure out what was goin on w/the phones. So its not like he was snooping on purpose. But when he looked in my inbox for those messages he saw some that looked iffy, so he read some of them. ... Yes, I have been talking to Marc and Adam still, and he read their messages to me. He knew who they were and what types of relationships I've had w/them, since I was dating all 3 at once and kept it open between all guys. So he read some stuff he didn't like EX: "we don't have to do anything sexual" I comment from adam because he wanted to come down this upcoming saturday. and from adam "we will see each other soon and I will make it well worth it"

So now you guys can see why he ignored me and "wanted to talk to me but wanted to wait till after the wedding on sunday". Thats what he wanted to talk to me about, just like most people he has been cheated on many of times, and I don't blame him for the way he acted, he didn't know what was going on and he didn't want to start a huge fight up in Carrollton. I feel like an idiot about everything that happened. And he promised me that he would never do that ever again, but instead come to me right from the start. And I believe him, because we have never had a problem until last friday. I'm just glad he acted like that and not worse, cuz if it were the other way around I would pry never talk to him again or something along those lines. So right now I'm just deciding if I want this relationship or not. His daughter is adorable but it was waaay to early for me to meet her. So we will see what happens.

About the whole gay/metrosexual~ I don't think that he is gay. I've actually talked to him about it, I didn't come out and ask him if he was gay, but I told him that he had many metrosexual activities and such that had me worried. So we talked about all that and he explained it to me. 1st off he said he is really sensitive and what not because of past relationships, he said that was what other girls always told him they liked, so after being told so many times he just began to do those types of things, because he thought that was what girls wanted.

I hope this clears everything up

9.11.2005

Was Cory drunk when he wrote that?!?

Emily-
The dog= Wrigley, Matt's dog.
Matt= from Roscoe, which is near Rockford. Way north. Currently he is 1.5 hours away working at a newspaper in Danville, Ill.

Sorority recruitment wrap-up=
1st round= met tons of nice girls and only 1 or 2 not so nice ones.
2nd round= made sock puppets for the S. June Smith Center for kids with special needs (much like the Derek Zoolander Center for Kids Who Can't Read Good and Want to Learn to Do Other Stuff Good Too, only not)Met 4 new girls and one I'd already met.
Preference night (today)= Met one new girl and had two I'd already known. Several girls came back that I rushed, including Stephanie, Danielle, Gena, Jenna, Tory and Jamie. I hope they get in our house! I'm excited. 114 people came to our pref parties, and our goal is 49. Cross your fingers!
Bid Day= is Tuesday. Yesssssss rush is over!!

Yeah thanks Em! Good luck with yours too. you'll do great!!!!
So exciting :)

Classes=
Hate them. For the most part. They just keep me from getting shit done, pretty much. Gotta talk to my sports writing teacher to work out a deal on covering events that happen to not work out with my schedule.

Family=
Mom's friend Donna died. She's real sad, but I suck at helping ppl feel better about these things. What to do, what to do.

Fright Fest=
Weekend of October 7-9. It's fall break, no classes Friday (not that I EVER have classes on that day, but the thing is- the sorority won't have shit I have to do. Probably banking on Friday evening, but I'll keep you posted if anything changes. Let me know that there will be anough ppl going. I wish we could wait for Diane but the rest of October I have stuff to do for the most part. Maybe not Halloween weekend, we'll see if I end up having to do with the DEN to Kansas City.

Boys=
Can't get over the wierdness. Shouldn't say can't- more like haven't completely been able to yet. Really want to though, on both our parts. He's so damn special. He went to a strip club this weekend with a bachelor party and couldn't have fun because he FELT BAD for the strippers. I don't know why, but I feel like the insensitive male in this instance. Maybe because I enjoy a good gay, naked shower on a bar. But maybe I think it's funny. U would too if you havent already seen it (so I'm specifying this to Thomas and Cory I guess, haha)

Verge=
Going great. Getting used to deadlines, now that sorority stuff should be dying down. Also, weare getting good writers, and maybe soon I won't have to do much else other than planning and checking. Which is what I should be doing instead of writing.

Roommates=
Erin just flipped out because there's a bug in her room. Jenni is doing laundry here and they were both taking fotos of fake Fendi and Louis Vuiotton (sp?) bags to sell on eBay. Thill is gone. His idea of roommate bonding time lasted until Amy (his ladyfriend) called him over to her house. I am not on his computer, for mine has a virus. I might be needing a new one.

The DEN=
Went out last night. Schroeder (who hasn't hung out in forever), Haas (who recently returned to Chucktown), Erin, Jenni, Meinheit (who used to be the EIC) and several others went to Megan's (who lives with 3 Lambda Chi guys) for a fatty Lambda Chi party then we went to Hatter's, and LaBamba's (yuck) and saw plenty of other DENer's there. Never a sober night with these guys. When we left we came back here (Jenni, Erin and I) and snacked on White Castle microwaved cheesburgers, Fridays' bacon cheddar potato wedges, Cheez-Its (yes, Diane) and HALLOWEEN OREOS (again, shut yo mouf). Then BrainO'Malley came down because it's not a sleepover till BO'Malley arrives.

That, that's pretty much everything. That will make up for smaller posts I leave during the week that don't make sense. Enjoy.

What did curtic do for a living????

I know you said he did something on the internet.....I think it is porn related....thats my guess that the manger at the food place was a menber to the web site..you should check you history on you computer to see if he went to any porn sites on you computer.....or he is a porn star and the guy was a fan...well their are some ideas on what you can do.....hell you could even google his name to see if anything comes up....Well i have yo find my remote to my T.V. later

"Keep Pushin On"

Laura~ Thanks dood, yes that is a good song to listen to. I've been listening to REO nonstop today... esp this song:

Keep Pushin

I used to be lonely till I learned about livin alone
I found other things to keep my mind on
And I'm gettin to know myself a little bit better
Whoa , I keep pushin on
Keep pushin on, yeah

Goin through all the changes I made so many mistakes, oh yes I did
Tryin to leave behind the heartaches
And sometimes I think I was a little bit crazy, oh yeah
Whoa, I keep pushin on

Keep pushin, keep pushin, keep pushin, keep pushin on
Keep pushin, keep pushin, you know you have got to be so strong
Keep pushin, keep pushin, well even if you think your strength is gone
Keep pushin on

(solo)

Well it's comin together I finally feel like a man, oh yes I do
I never thought that I'd be where I am, oh
Everyday I wake a little bit higher
Whoa I keep pushin on, oh yeah
(repeat chorus)

Well minus the feel like a man part... substitute woman there.. hehe...

Its kinda sad, I can't stop thinking about him, and what he is doing right at this very moment, and if he is thinking about me.... Blah! I'm glad I'm gettin outta my house tonight for sorority stuff, good luck w/urs Laura, mine starts tomorrow, and I'm kinda nervous about talking to all the different girls and hopeing to make a good impression for DPHIE.

Who's dog? Where is Matt from and where does he live now? Sorry I'm tryin to catch up on this blog thing... Well I better go read for my test on thursday cuz I'm not gonna have that much time this week...

"I will survive"

I used to sing that song and think about ex boyfriends. Once I had it up as an away message and Andy got mad because it was kind of hurtful.

"I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you."

Main point-----> Emily,
I'm sorry to hear the news, but I'm glad you're dealing well. I don't think Curtis is gay. I don't know him well or anything but he sounds more metro than anything.
But I am really happy you're dealing well. Chin up lady, you'll find someone great. Just be glad you found out that he wasn't so special now and not years from now or even months from now as things progressed even further. And you learn something new from every experience like this that you have. It may suck, but it makes you a better person in the long run, and don't you forget it.
Feel better, if you need to call anyone hit me up. If I don't answer my phone I'll call you back as soon as I can (rush is still happening). My computer has a virus so I only have the internet in the DEN.

This weekend.
Rush is a blast. It gets a little annoying talking to so many damn people (So far I met 14 girls 1st round, 4 second round and tonight is pref night. We're supposed to get someone we already know but we'll see.) And it gets louder than hell in that room with 60 girls talking to about 40 PMs (potential members).

Matt's visit Wednesday and Thursday.
The dog pissed me off like all hell until about Thursday night. He sheds everywhere and slobbers everywhere. And barks like crazy. I want to dropkick him over a bridge every so often. Also, he's really needy and cuts down on me and Matt time, when we have to baby him. Spoiled. Ugh.
Anyway the me and Matt thing is still going on. We both still want something to really happen (meaning a real relationship) but we are still working on getting over the wierdness of his ex girlfriend being a friend.... he's getting over her still for the most part, I'm getting over the fact that they were together and now theyre not, and we are trying to get used to being more than friends. Sometimes its awkward. But we're working on it. Between that and the distance it's hard, but I'm willing to do most anything really. And so is he.
He's so pretty. And sweet. And just what I need.

Alright, well, I gotta get outta here, shower, do myself up, get into my black pref night dress and head over to the house. Have a good day everyone.