Strange Weekend

Well, I actually did it, I broke up with Chuck on Friday, but last night he thought we were back together again. I told him I would just date him, but that isn't good enough, which is understandable. I just don't know what I do to guys..... He totally wanted to marry me and have kids. Last night he told me that he doesn't even look at other girls, which i told him that everyone does 'look' but he swore up and down that he doesn't. I'm not ready for a relationship like that, with the whole marriage/kids thing. I'm pry gonna be moving in two years anyways, well not moving, but going away to school. I'm really interested in Chicago or New York, which are both too far away, I think, to try to keep a long distance relationship.

I feel really bad for chuck, but what was I suppose to do, I'm not that 'in love' with him, or at least I don't think I am. We'll see what happens in the next couple of days without him in my life.

He told me that two years is a long time away and things could change, I think he was saying this in hopes that I would change my mind and not go anywhere for school. But I'm not changing my mind though, DEA has been what I have wanted to do since after my first semester at SIUE. If law school is one of my only chances then I'm gonna take it, even if it means going to school a thousand miles away.

Oh yea~ Good update on getting in to law school. I talked to my criminal justice club advisor and he said he would sign my papers to send in to be admitted to the Criminal Justice Club Honor Society, Alpha Phi Sigma to be exact. Then I am joining the psychology club and I have the grades to be admitted to their Honor Society which is Psi Chi. So I hope that looks really good on my applications.

Well I'm gonna go tanning and get ready cuz I am going shopping with steve. I'm not going to buy anything, I'm not going to buy anything... must remain strong.... I am poor, I'm not going to buy anything.......................