Awkwardness

So. Me and Aaron are pretty much here alone. Once a week or so we go eat dinner together. Never at a fast food place, always something a little nicer, yet still not fancy.

EVERY damn time, the restaurant people treat us as if we were together. I didn't mind at first, but it's becoming just wierd. It almost makes me paranoid. Can they tell I used to have a crush on him? I realize I still get a little giggly aroung him and laugh at everything he says. I'm just like that.

And I know it's "customary" to hand the check to the guy but it's a pain in the ass having to pay him. I feel bad even, that they think he is going to pay for stuff.

And we went to a co-worker's BBQ last weekend and he, Todd, was introducing everyone from the paper to his friends. And one of the interns brought her husband. And there was hesitation is his voice when he introduced up... "I donno if Aaron and Laura are the same way..." And to save myself from feeling bad if Aaron were to feel adverse to this idea, I immediately called out" no, we're not" then I let out an uneasy giggle. I think I offended him a little. "Oh thanks!" he said and he gave me a little grin.

And then one night came the convo about me having made out with all the sports guys... except him. And we were a little drunky that night. And he seemed offended that I hadn't and he made a comment on how he "didn't get to." Or something. But he never tried. Not to say if he had we would have but look my track recond's not good. haha...