It's Finally Over

So, Ryan and I broke up last night.

It was something that needed to be done, because it just wasn't working out. But it sucks, it doesn't feel like a stress has been lifted like I thought it would. I mean, I don't have to worry and try hard just to make things even OK between us, but now I feel as though all of my efforts have been in vain for the past 5-6 months or so. And in that time, as many of you know, I made myself crazy trying to make something work that, lets face it, just was not going to happen. I feel stupid, and embarrassed, and I have let myself down about a lot of things.....

I'm kinda mad, kinda sad, kinda relieved, but overall not feeling too well today, so we'll have to see about raquetball tonight Emily, I'll let u know. (possibly more later, maybe not)