Coming up on one year with The Telegraph. July 12 (Rachelowe's b-day!)
I have been out of school for more than a year now, and I'm still adjusting to some things: I'm not used to being in one place constantly, and my one year marks one year of being at home with no changes in the forseeable future.
I always liked having something to count down to:
3 more weeks until I come home from Rock Island... 1 month before Christmas vacation... 2 years until graduation... stuff like that.
Now its:
One month until...
OH WAIT, I'll be doing the same thing in a month, possibly for a lot longer than that.
I'll be in the same place doing the same thing and nothing seems like its going to change.
I'm getting comfortable, but comfort is feeling a lot like boredom right now. And it also leaves me a little scared. Everytime I seem to get comfortable with my own situation, other people change and my situation changes when I don't want it to and there's nothing I can do about it. I hate being powerless.
I need to do something to take control of my life, but I don't like running everytime there's a possibility other people might change.
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